Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Value of Time n Life for on my priceless heart

when i started asking friends bout what 2007 means
i realised the last 1/6 of 2007 has fallen in time
well
what i did this year?
what came to my feeling?
o what improvement i had recently?

what i found out is
of the relationship stuff
family can never replace
bcoz family is arranged in fate

relationship partner?
they may hav expired date somehow
depends on how long it will b

somehow i wound look back for my late relationship
it's not i wan the moment back
but the moment reminds me of something
at the begining everything would b really sweet as everyone knows
at the ending mostly there's someone getting hurt

i ever chosed to get hurted
n now pain shall not get closee to my heart
a real short relationship i had
to most ppl there may hav sweet moments
but i found out myself being cold blooded somehow
i can;t find the word feeling from my heart
she may b a nice gal
but not inteligent enuf
it doesn't mean that i'm inteligent o what
juz somehow i think we're not in the same channel of the same world

feel kinda glad n suprised this time
tot i would hav tons of tears to b dropped
o should i consider this as a puppy love eh?

i was serious
from my heart
but
fate giv me an answer as i chose the wrong gal
m i cruel o the fate cruel?
to me is i can let go things easily when there no any value
to let go
in order to get more

i wont let any stupid things happen anymore
only to prevend else i would need another year to cure my wound from heart

do i hav any pain then?
sure will coz the relationship was important to me
what else can i do?
o what i can do to get them back?
i guess i don hav to do
once the diamond broken
it breaks into pieces
no way to get it fixed
even the diamond can cut through harder man
tougher man
unless these prices can become a astonishing jewelries

when relationship brokes
meaningless to save it back
unless there's an indicator for the feeling had not lost
else it'll only resulted by tearing yr wounds deeper

get off from the meaningless stuff for the memory













ah~~~~
a new blank space for me to go on
yet i better don disappoint god for giving me a second chance to live
what i can say is
it feels good to return from the door of death

though the exams coming
i can stil relax here
i don wanna pressures myself
i hav confident in myself
as the rules to succeed in my life
for the second change to live in this world

think i should juz continue on my novel writting job
whether to publish to the public?
i would think of it
though those r only crap
to me
full of things that i felt meaningful wif

waiting for the nx term of blood donation
wanan hav a cleaner n new blood
significantion of hav a better n fresher tomorrow

recently been playing psp for the latest gundam shooting game
well
pretty nice n i love it very much
totally a new different feeling to me on it
til now hope i can best the extra mission on the threat on newtype
pretty challenging
that it brings the strongest characters as the enemies in the level

about gundam
heard nick's going to singapore to find my birthday present for me
ha ha ha
so touched to know that
yet he's my old friend n best friend
i wan the Master Grade Strike Freeom Full Burst Mode!!!
haha
then the coming up of the brand new Master Grade Unicorn Gundam!!!
damn the design was amazing n astonishing
it brings me a totally fresh feeeling
argh!!!!!

birthday coming eh?
ask friends n family accompany is the best thing ever
juz talked to my motherly friend
that makes me get frustrated on getting older 1 year soon
a leap to the age of 19~
my life hav passed at least 1/5
do i create anything?
i do
n i stil creating
i'm creating myself
improving myself

of the evolution part of project Archangel
the HID kit din arrived yet
y so lousy that kuching has not HID kit?
it actually not
juz bcoz the HID kit need to b the H7 size
n yet that's a real rare bulb to b used on projector headlamps cars
then changing to 17: rims but din found a nice set of alloy rims yet
sighed
the air intake system was replaced from borrowing torrento's 'mushroom'
i can feel the extra horses running under the bonnet
the interior lightning had been done
the brembo kit need to b customize b4 putting on my ride
of the ignition part
i thinking to change to denso's idium spark plugs n NGK plugs cables
well
guess this part would cost to at least 1k gua?>
n the exhaust part
stil looking for the jasma exhaust
n that shall do it in the meaning bhind lightning n performance

most probably the nx thing i'll get is the improvement of the sound system
guess this would need a higher budgeted amount
n stil this is what gets the car alive
live to drive

that day juz finished the animation of naruto on 252
finally there'll gonna hav new character on the nx episode
n i'll wait for it

keroro?
aiks i forgot to wait 183 since i downloaded it

gundam00?
to me pretty nice
to my friends? they said not
maybe point of views r different
but i would say mine's better~
hahahah

life's still long eh
stil at 1/5 of life
not ready to to knock the door of hell o heaven yet

Monday, October 22, 2007

Dreams n Reality, Promises of Life

it's been awhile...
even since i last for posting my blog here...
time's killing my life...
within a blink of de eyes...
n i dono if whatever i do is killing my own time...

Dreams...
that pushes my soul...
once i ever think of...
always was...
n dreams r still breathing fresh...

reality is the challenge of dreams...
to me...
else dreams mean nothing...
even if dreams came without any value that worths...

Promises made in my life
once i had being make to proven for who i m
even to make the promises wif my life
i did
but i dono if i can changed
juz bcoz it;s the promises in my life
somehow i'm really scares...
of the promises i've promised wif my life...
once any of the promises is broke
i'm no longer who i m
o even if the life can forget the meaning of the promises

i dreamed of sth i should not dream of
it reminds me of pain
it's not the pain from others
but the pain from the wounds moments ago
the wounds were the pain from myself
what written on the wounds
of how i was being
that was
never a man

from what i'll b in my reality
i'll prove myself
not for the promises anymore
but for who i m
the spirit of Lamborghini
that is never giv up till the last moment
n that would b my rules

create de future from de future eh?
past may remember as if they r the notes of life
but the future r here to b written as the moment come
de never ending story

though life may b tough
this is where life's meaning to b fun