n i'm lost at the same spot i used to b...

searching for the path
under the sea of stars

it's totally dark here
can;t even see my hands wif my eyes
the moon has been hidden by the hands of god
the only thing that brights up n lit the sight to the way
only from the stars

in the darkness
shadows r all around
what else can i rely on
i don think there much

i decide my ways from my feeling
yet i lost everything from my wrong sense
what i know is
even if i lost everything
i stil hav to choose the right path n continue my life til the last breathe
knew it aint easy from the spot i'd lost
but this is where the fun came from

bad memories that the bloody letter reminds me of
n that's one of the source make my world darker
i used to beliv myself more than anything to de entire world
but now i hardly beliv even my mind as i hardly control where my mind should lead me to

i'm a perfectionist
if choosing sth i don like
i rather giv up the power choosing

there's sth i can't see after yr to the future
but i know there;s sth that affects the future
not bcoz of fate o luck
but the chance of our power to actions that may change the nx moment after

2 years after

nightmare
nightmares

that keep me awake no to fallen in nightmares instead of dreams

everything changed
in a short while of 2 years
but my heart leads me weak no changing much

i wonder how long can my life last
o even how many days i still hav

somehow it;s not bout leaving the world
but what we left for the world

well i finished MGS4 wif naked normal mode
yet i thousands juz to know the story to metal gear
what i realized is
struggle for life while we still can
avoid making any mistake
after all it's a very nice story
i hope there will b more story for metal gear

classes r starting adi
well my happy n enjoyable hours had gone
bz wif work n study
yet i feel tired somehow
in the end
what i feel is
i dono why i doing all the things for

these days
i don feel there;s anyone i should go for
o even a single feeling i can;t feel

maybe it due to the scar i left 2 years ago
o even i;ve lost my way since the past

i need sleep
my eyes
i dono how long i stil hav to stand
o even how long i still can stand
wat is my limit
i've never been that far b4

what life will b
i dono
i juz know the melting ice may flood the world n makes the world hotter
it came in a sudden from news
i was shocked n afraid
the ice r terrible if they start moving in other form
it may even b a crisis for human being

for future
i see no hope
doesn;t mean there's no hope
but i'm stil waiting n searching

nightmares that hav brought me here since 2 years ago
i;m sure there'll b more soon
yet for this world i cannot accept much
the world must accept me then
to me
i beliv in myself more anyone in this world even more than juz god