失味

我也不懂我在想什麼...
但我只能說, 我知道我在做什麼...

離考試還有三個月, 但我還為真正去打開書學習...
但我不會有放棄的念頭, 不然這世界...

對我來說, 就少了點樂趣...


我的心還未活, 或許只是我的意識真在堅持在人間的身軀...

是乎好像找到目標的天使, 但或許還得花點時間與心思...

這天陰沉沉的, 看示低調, 或許也因為這樣我的心情也有點低調

冷靜的思考與情緒, 往往對很多人來說...
在感情上, 是起不了作用...
這也是我的弱點之一...
除非你更本不把感情看重...

也因為這樣, 我有點迷失了我的方向...
在這星海下, 唯有星星是地圖...

我欲等待那流星的出現, 帶領我會到那快樂的原點...


如果要我放棄一切, 下定決心的我是做不到...
即使惡魔再度回來尋找我的影子...
只要心還唯有死的決議, 這是不可能被帶走的...


往往就如用勁了力氣, 也拉不逕天與地的距離般...
認為自己做了一切能做的事, 最終也沒得到自己想要的結果...
這也很諷刺, 最終也忘了最初是為了什麼而做...

天很暗, 心就像被壓般的難受...
世界是這麼黑暗的話, 我的心靈又能堅持多久...

在倒下的那一刻, 腦海中出現了許多畫面...
使未來還是過去, 感覺痛苦, 而且很久, 醒來發現只不過是一瞬間罷了...
如死亡邊緣般...
諾不醒來, 記憶可能如電影中斷般的結束...

我很認真, 對於我的一切, 我的生命...
看示幼稚的我, 只不過是想逃離這現實的黑暗...
難道這世界沒希望了嗎?

反正一切已經不重要了...

BMW training experiences

as in topic
i went for bmw training :P

hehe
kinda great experience for me tho i failed the first 3 training in the first part -.-
which is the training of using the electronic system in the ride to evade object quickly (forgot what/s the system's name tho, i think call DTS what ever -.-)

this silver shark is the one i was driving

that was held near the stadium's wide car park

there were 3 of 3 series n 1 5 series for training purpose
but sadly 1 of the 325 which was the most among the 3s on the day hit the tree due to loss control -.-
power overwhelming eh?

the time when i arrived
one of BMW's director was there also
n i was glad to meet some one who is so "high end"
too bad forgot to take a pic wif such a great person
as there's one of the trainee wearing slipper, the trainers din allow him for the training
yet this great man feel a bit disappointed that he couldn;t make it for the training and asked him if his shoes size suit for exchange in order for training

this is some cool training i can say that i hardly see mercedes benz hav such kinda campaign around in malaysia

i'll try if i can upload some clips here n also the clips i was driving :P
since it's 3gp format from my phone
guess that'll take a bit time -.-

sorry for some of the poor quality pics from my phone eh -.-

thanx to brandon, the man from auto bavaria

never ending tomorrow...

peak period had gone
yes i'm free as b4
juz i'll juz hav to spend some more time on my study
yet i haven;t pay for my ACCA annual fee -.-

well
during the peak period
i don even hav the time to wash ma ride
guess i'll hav to wash it till it shines like a crystal on road
(i do did some stuff til my nx plan is to change rims which is my long time dream all day long)

these days kinda sienz
when working, not as busy as b4
n that makes me kinda worse being lazy than b4
o maybe juz some construction accounts scare me a lot from my career
as its aint easy job for most ppl -.-

i still love typing england here
no worry for every single i hav to type n find from chinese

there;s some ppl keeps on asking the same ques o telling the same thing that makes me a fool -.-
well
i really hope i'm the so called "family members" else i'll b sadder for what they've been asking since rumors
so sad til sweat

gonna get my hair cut/style
the last time i went ah boon there was around when the fuel hike
yet i did really planned to get bald as my mom always complained for my long hair
after i heard from ah boon of the hair that grow again wont b so straight like b4 n may being curly
n that's it, i gav up -.-

n of my "long-lasting" problem which irritates me alot
well
i only can say: "sweat~~~~~~~~~~~~"
maybe i should go read more psychology materials
as these days ppl gets stronger in their mind
o should i say, i gets weaker? -.-
all for the angels

the beautiful days
the beautiful nights
n i hope to hav beautiful dreams

of dreams
i dono if i should call this a sweet dreams o a nightmare
everything's been so real
i hug her
she kissed me
the strange thing is
it gav me a feel after i woke up
"sometimes a devil can sound like an angel"
n that happened months ago n suddenly floated in my mind

錯覺

工作忙得以不成人型, 也不知是否可以順利完成手上的工作, 希望不會讓同事們對我失望...

這單身的生活, 是自由, 但孤獨... 我喜歡有人陪, 一起分享快樂, 看電影, 看流星在那烏雲中滑過...

美麗的夢想看示還未蒙夢圓, 或許只因為夢呈經碎裂, 產生了自己害怕的陰影...
往往我試著不讓夢碎, 最終還是傷心的碎了, 我很心痛...
我不明白也不能接受, 對我來說這根本不是事實而是惡夢...
著讓我產生了不安的挫折感, 但問題是, 我到底犯了哪些該死的錯

只因為緣絕了嗎?
讓你離開, 是給你選擇的權力, 諾硬要把你留下, 最後的失敗最終還會是我...
諾妳選個比我好的人, 我心服口服...
但妳選錯了, 這是我不把你留下的錯誤, 還是你的選擇就是錯?
這讓我很心痛... 但我什麼也做不了, 因為這是你的選擇... 這是妳選的路...
我也不能阻止妳, 也使得這一年以來, 我孤獨的走向我自己的路...
使得我的心靈有點空虛...

但我不再椎弱的調淚

我不敢說我做的每一件事, 是對的, 但我的意志明白我再做什麼...
或許有人會說, 我很花心, 但我能說的是, 我很鍾情...
我想往的是, 永遠的愛情...
但是永遠還站在我這一邊吧...

我急的不單是找女友, 而是找個終生伴侶...
因為愛可以使我活到永遠, 這是我的信唸...

根之源點

碧藍的天空
我喜歡這無限的視野
不再喜歡從竄內, 也從沒喜歡, 在這被限制的世界, 看這外面的世界...

望著這天空, 很舒服, 很美好
不幸的是, 所謂的人見, 子所作所為, 破壞她, 母親地球...
我的心靈, 復生在這人體當中, 也未她感到悲傷
人間最終還是毀在自己的手上...

在這所謂文明的世界, 無知的人間遭到無知的荼毒...
離道的思想，短視的人間，使這世界較為本的黑暗．．．

在這不足的世界，我還是追求完美，只為完美主義生活



或許有些人，或會好奇我為何開始寫中文？
因為我只是想知到我的語言能力到哪...

說實在的... 或許我是感到孤獨, 想在的伴侶陪我...
但我很挑剔, 只因為, 我不想浪費時間選錯人...
使得, 到現在, 天使還未出現...
我也從未放棄
只要還能看見藍天的一天, 天使終會出現...

n i'm lost at the same spot i used to b...

searching for the path
under the sea of stars

it's totally dark here
can;t even see my hands wif my eyes
the moon has been hidden by the hands of god
the only thing that brights up n lit the sight to the way
only from the stars

in the darkness
shadows r all around
what else can i rely on
i don think there much

i decide my ways from my feeling
yet i lost everything from my wrong sense
what i know is
even if i lost everything
i stil hav to choose the right path n continue my life til the last breathe
knew it aint easy from the spot i'd lost
but this is where the fun came from

bad memories that the bloody letter reminds me of
n that's one of the source make my world darker
i used to beliv myself more than anything to de entire world
but now i hardly beliv even my mind as i hardly control where my mind should lead me to

i'm a perfectionist
if choosing sth i don like
i rather giv up the power choosing

there's sth i can't see after yr to the future
but i know there;s sth that affects the future
not bcoz of fate o luck
but the chance of our power to actions that may change the nx moment after

2 years after

nightmare
nightmares

that keep me awake no to fallen in nightmares instead of dreams

everything changed
in a short while of 2 years
but my heart leads me weak no changing much

i wonder how long can my life last
o even how many days i still hav

somehow it;s not bout leaving the world
but what we left for the world

well i finished MGS4 wif naked normal mode
yet i thousands juz to know the story to metal gear
what i realized is
struggle for life while we still can
avoid making any mistake
after all it's a very nice story
i hope there will b more story for metal gear

classes r starting adi
well my happy n enjoyable hours had gone
bz wif work n study
yet i feel tired somehow
in the end
what i feel is
i dono why i doing all the things for

these days
i don feel there;s anyone i should go for
o even a single feeling i can;t feel

maybe it due to the scar i left 2 years ago
o even i;ve lost my way since the past

i need sleep
my eyes
i dono how long i stil hav to stand
o even how long i still can stand
wat is my limit
i've never been that far b4

what life will b
i dono
i juz know the melting ice may flood the world n makes the world hotter
it came in a sudden from news
i was shocked n afraid
the ice r terrible if they start moving in other form
it may even b a crisis for human being

for future
i see no hope
doesn;t mean there's no hope
but i'm stil waiting n searching

nightmares that hav brought me here since 2 years ago
i;m sure there'll b more soon
yet for this world i cannot accept much
the world must accept me then
to me
i beliv in myself more anyone in this world even more than juz god