傻傻的天氣

"Love's beautiful~~~ so beautiful~~~"
蔡健雅的beautiful love, 相信許多人已聽過一段時間了, 但給我來說, 我很喜歡這首歌, 那種感覺...

傻傻欲可愛的天氣, 看起來有點懶惰, 但這幾天未哭泣, 希望今晚看到如母親般的月亮...

到底我是為什麼而做一切, 最終目的我還是不知道, 或許我根本不喜歡浪費時間...

這孤獨的單身日子, 或許只能把愛獻給我的戰車, 看今天天氣不錯, 剛買了一瓶蠟皇想打蠟, 但二哥駕了出去還未回來... -.-

工作也帶了回家, 因為在公司捉蛇太利害, 自由這樣才不會讓他人說閒話...

我在想
諾可以得到我所要的一切...
我想這個世界會因這樣而顯的沒有樂趣...
這邊是命運...

而機會...
仿佛九如身邊遇到的事情這麼去處理..
也就是選擇的權力...

命運與機會的遊戲
或許因為這樣而有點意思

tough feeling

n damn this world
for making me being so down n sad

i juz can;t stop myself from expressing myself using the old style way i used to me
damn this world of freaks that giving me the hard feeling that pressures my heart being so pain
damn!

somehow i juz feel kinda
very lost

i can;t cool myself down but only to keep on keying everything inside here
i juz dono why i can't do things i really wan, i can get everything i tried hard, but y not in relationship
n damn did all these things really caused by me!?
this is not what i wan
i juz feel so pain

it's not the case of i made lots of joke
but i gav lots of hope
n i was being like a fool n fooled like a kid wans a sweet but the sweet can never get into the kid's mouth

i juz duno why i can;t stop thinking this way
feeling as if u brought yr tickets for flight but the flight fly earlier b4 u reached to check in

there's no light in the end of the tunnel

i'm so sorry i hav to say so

but i hav to trust my feeling
coz my feeling always tell the right way i should

since from the begining
of every nightmares that fall n made me ambushed


yet
i stil like the way loving perfectionism
being perfect for everything i can

i gav the wrong bet
wrong game from the begining
i tot this would b the last angel i would go for
yet
i'm lucky enuf i never push my very last hope to this damn game

u may say i'm being like a fox complain the grapes being sour since it don hav the chance to eat
but sorry
u;re wrong
even if i;m a fox, i rather choose other in case of those grapes

i dono why do i make myself so hard for everything

n damn this feeling

i never feel good

i;m impatient
coz i never wanan get hurted
this only shorten my life in the end

i must say
my life isn;t short
but i scare my life is not long enuf for my dreams

i start to lose most of hope to this world
there;s no angel
angels r not in this human-being world
nor the devils

only the ugliest human being that is destroying their home
betraying their minds n souls

i appologise for being human
from heart
bcoz i stil hav the heart that keeps me alive
either to change this ugly world
o to watch this world til the very doom end...

yet i;ve tried my very best
n i;m sorry i can make any different in the very end

to my soul, my love to this world...

失味

我也不懂我在想什麼...
但我只能說, 我知道我在做什麼...

離考試還有三個月, 但我還為真正去打開書學習...
但我不會有放棄的念頭, 不然這世界...

對我來說, 就少了點樂趣...


我的心還未活, 或許只是我的意識真在堅持在人間的身軀...

是乎好像找到目標的天使, 但或許還得花點時間與心思...

這天陰沉沉的, 看示低調, 或許也因為這樣我的心情也有點低調

冷靜的思考與情緒, 往往對很多人來說...
在感情上, 是起不了作用...
這也是我的弱點之一...
除非你更本不把感情看重...

也因為這樣, 我有點迷失了我的方向...
在這星海下, 唯有星星是地圖...

我欲等待那流星的出現, 帶領我會到那快樂的原點...


如果要我放棄一切, 下定決心的我是做不到...
即使惡魔再度回來尋找我的影子...
只要心還唯有死的決議, 這是不可能被帶走的...


往往就如用勁了力氣, 也拉不逕天與地的距離般...
認為自己做了一切能做的事, 最終也沒得到自己想要的結果...
這也很諷刺, 最終也忘了最初是為了什麼而做...

天很暗, 心就像被壓般的難受...
世界是這麼黑暗的話, 我的心靈又能堅持多久...

在倒下的那一刻, 腦海中出現了許多畫面...
使未來還是過去, 感覺痛苦, 而且很久, 醒來發現只不過是一瞬間罷了...
如死亡邊緣般...
諾不醒來, 記憶可能如電影中斷般的結束...

我很認真, 對於我的一切, 我的生命...
看示幼稚的我, 只不過是想逃離這現實的黑暗...
難道這世界沒希望了嗎?

反正一切已經不重要了...

BMW training experiences

as in topic
i went for bmw training :P

hehe
kinda great experience for me tho i failed the first 3 training in the first part -.-
which is the training of using the electronic system in the ride to evade object quickly (forgot what/s the system's name tho, i think call DTS what ever -.-)

this silver shark is the one i was driving

that was held near the stadium's wide car park

there were 3 of 3 series n 1 5 series for training purpose
but sadly 1 of the 325 which was the most among the 3s on the day hit the tree due to loss control -.-
power overwhelming eh?

the time when i arrived
one of BMW's director was there also
n i was glad to meet some one who is so "high end"
too bad forgot to take a pic wif such a great person
as there's one of the trainee wearing slipper, the trainers din allow him for the training
yet this great man feel a bit disappointed that he couldn;t make it for the training and asked him if his shoes size suit for exchange in order for training

this is some cool training i can say that i hardly see mercedes benz hav such kinda campaign around in malaysia

i'll try if i can upload some clips here n also the clips i was driving :P
since it's 3gp format from my phone
guess that'll take a bit time -.-

sorry for some of the poor quality pics from my phone eh -.-

thanx to brandon, the man from auto bavaria

never ending tomorrow...

peak period had gone
yes i'm free as b4
juz i'll juz hav to spend some more time on my study
yet i haven;t pay for my ACCA annual fee -.-

well
during the peak period
i don even hav the time to wash ma ride
guess i'll hav to wash it till it shines like a crystal on road
(i do did some stuff til my nx plan is to change rims which is my long time dream all day long)

these days kinda sienz
when working, not as busy as b4
n that makes me kinda worse being lazy than b4
o maybe juz some construction accounts scare me a lot from my career
as its aint easy job for most ppl -.-

i still love typing england here
no worry for every single i hav to type n find from chinese

there;s some ppl keeps on asking the same ques o telling the same thing that makes me a fool -.-
well
i really hope i'm the so called "family members" else i'll b sadder for what they've been asking since rumors
so sad til sweat

gonna get my hair cut/style
the last time i went ah boon there was around when the fuel hike
yet i did really planned to get bald as my mom always complained for my long hair
after i heard from ah boon of the hair that grow again wont b so straight like b4 n may being curly
n that's it, i gav up -.-

n of my "long-lasting" problem which irritates me alot
well
i only can say: "sweat~~~~~~~~~~~~"
maybe i should go read more psychology materials
as these days ppl gets stronger in their mind
o should i say, i gets weaker? -.-
all for the angels

the beautiful days
the beautiful nights
n i hope to hav beautiful dreams

of dreams
i dono if i should call this a sweet dreams o a nightmare
everything's been so real
i hug her
she kissed me
the strange thing is
it gav me a feel after i woke up
"sometimes a devil can sound like an angel"
n that happened months ago n suddenly floated in my mind

錯覺

工作忙得以不成人型, 也不知是否可以順利完成手上的工作, 希望不會讓同事們對我失望...

這單身的生活, 是自由, 但孤獨... 我喜歡有人陪, 一起分享快樂, 看電影, 看流星在那烏雲中滑過...

美麗的夢想看示還未蒙夢圓, 或許只因為夢呈經碎裂, 產生了自己害怕的陰影...
往往我試著不讓夢碎, 最終還是傷心的碎了, 我很心痛...
我不明白也不能接受, 對我來說這根本不是事實而是惡夢...
著讓我產生了不安的挫折感, 但問題是, 我到底犯了哪些該死的錯

只因為緣絕了嗎?
讓你離開, 是給你選擇的權力, 諾硬要把你留下, 最後的失敗最終還會是我...
諾妳選個比我好的人, 我心服口服...
但妳選錯了, 這是我不把你留下的錯誤, 還是你的選擇就是錯?
這讓我很心痛... 但我什麼也做不了, 因為這是你的選擇... 這是妳選的路...
我也不能阻止妳, 也使得這一年以來, 我孤獨的走向我自己的路...
使得我的心靈有點空虛...

但我不再椎弱的調淚

我不敢說我做的每一件事, 是對的, 但我的意志明白我再做什麼...
或許有人會說, 我很花心, 但我能說的是, 我很鍾情...
我想往的是, 永遠的愛情...
但是永遠還站在我這一邊吧...

我急的不單是找女友, 而是找個終生伴侶...
因為愛可以使我活到永遠, 這是我的信唸...

根之源點

碧藍的天空
我喜歡這無限的視野
不再喜歡從竄內, 也從沒喜歡, 在這被限制的世界, 看這外面的世界...

望著這天空, 很舒服, 很美好
不幸的是, 所謂的人見, 子所作所為, 破壞她, 母親地球...
我的心靈, 復生在這人體當中, 也未她感到悲傷
人間最終還是毀在自己的手上...

在這所謂文明的世界, 無知的人間遭到無知的荼毒...
離道的思想，短視的人間，使這世界較為本的黑暗．．．

在這不足的世界，我還是追求完美，只為完美主義生活



或許有些人，或會好奇我為何開始寫中文？
因為我只是想知到我的語言能力到哪...

說實在的... 或許我是感到孤獨, 想在的伴侶陪我...
但我很挑剔, 只因為, 我不想浪費時間選錯人...
使得, 到現在, 天使還未出現...
我也從未放棄
只要還能看見藍天的一天, 天使終會出現...