Curse of the bleeding rose

from the beginning, to say in an irresponsible way, we’re never suitable, her angel appearance made me to give a try on matching…

it’s hard to believe, or rather should I say, it’s hard to accept, when someone you loved, ask you to break with her, let love die in your own hand instead of your love’s one...
someone you love, tells you she decide when to break when you're in love with her...

I never want to believe, the day she wanted to break up, using better words, to return as friends…
The whole week god may had tear at the same time, while my heart is bleeding…

Her decision made both of us hurt very very much…
Expressing my feelings and sadness here, I hurt her and she cried…
That’s why I choose to let the posts disappear just to stop her tears…
I’m the only one to be blamed because I’m the one who wrote everything

I always hope she’ll regret for her decision she made
Grabbing little hopes, always wanted to started a new relationship with her
Breaking my rules, for things I’ll never do for a girl as promise to my own principle,,,

When I asked her to stop crying, apologize for my fault on the posts…
She said there are always things that we both can solve together…

I’m sorry I dig the past out…
All I was doing was to avoid any regret in the rest of my life…
At least I should be happy for her, she’s still living in her own life
Unlike my past friend, who never had a chance to make any decision to stay…

I’m not born to hurt anyone in this world…
I guess today is the pay back from the past…
For words never made her understand me more…

her decision to break, she said she ever think about me, but without reason only her satisfaction...

From the beginning, I was never perfect for her…
Not in age, personality, background, mind set, dreams and everything…
Even our love is different, I choose to love someone with everything it got to takes to stay with her the rest of my life…

For her, I guess everything for her depends on her emotion…
Her emotion result our relationship, like fireworks
Fireworks that bright the sky beautifully, but it never last long…
Ended with smokes, and disappeared…
We had loved each others very much, it just ended too fast…

For her happiness, I should respect her decisions…
I may be the foolish person in this world, knew I’ll never succeed from grabbing more hopes on her, I knew I would end up with more disappointments…

The love she had on made me do so…
When think of her smile, it’s just like generating luck to my life…

I won’t regret doing all this, at least I know, there’s always things impossible…
At least I knew, I appreciate the happy memory with her love…
whether everything worth or not, i guess this question is more important to her

she may be over protected by her surrounding, or danger hardly come to her...
she never had my complicated steps in life, or never know how ugly the world is...
trying to make life simple, live my life with a smile, i was told childish all because i solve things in simple ways, just because i ever solve more complicated stuff she never knew...
for me, i create future with my future, while she creates future from the past...

I’m always the same person, I’m cleared with my mind set since long time ago…
Decision I’ve made, rarely made me regret for what I did…

Things I told, rarely a lie, but may become a joke to my own life…
Everything I ever said to you, words I’d been repeating, are true…

That night, I dropped my tears in front of her…
I guess my tears are meaningless, that lead to an end for our love…
even i told her i knew my ex married, she said i still let go my very 1st relationship...

i’ll never find another lover sweeter than you, precious than you…
Thanks for the song, a good listening song that curse my life to your love very much…

loving someone who wont gives any promise on your love, it's like a time bomb...
loving her from heart and she tells you she hope to find someone who love her more...
Dreams may have taken control on my decisions, I guess this is the reality after the blind love…
Having all happiness in dreams, wake up losing everything in reality as nightmares…

its been a long time, had drinks that made my mind blank, let time forwards quickly while body was drunk...
heart bleeds with sadness...
sadness of love i believe in, never make love last for so called forever...

of which, her emotion is stronger than the love i had on her
i'm selfish i wrote all this, that i shouldn;'t deserve the chance to express my down life
she's right for her decision made
i'm blamed because everything i do made her step backward...

good bye, a forever friend...

a friend, used to b my classmate when we were in secondary school

she used to teased me when i was kinda short that time
a cheerful gal that always smile n makes many ppl's school life a lot happier

she's someone i chased for 3 yrs, yes i failed to win her heart coz i'm never good enough for her as i'm always shy

i remember the time i was wif my 1st love
she accompanied me go n buy a diamond necklace

when my 1st love broke wif me
she even ask me to fly over to find her which she's willing to pay for me

i appreciate for what she did

i guess u would hav scold me stupid if u knew i juz destroyed my relationship
but thanx for being part of the memory in my study life

i paid my respect for her from tears
remember her as a friend as always
rest in peace my friend

life's short, i'll appreciate every moment i hav, so good bye...

the rose bleed before the world's goodbye

i thank for friends who care bout between me and her
but my wrong decision on posting here ruin her life, together the chance i should hav

life's full of miserable...
i gav my last shot of words from heart
hurting someone badly
end up disappointment i knew
maybe life;s never deserve for a second chance for a change

emotional is always the greatest enemy than logic
my mind bcome sensitive and runs crazy bcoz the the love i had on her
life well, the greatest revenge... the word 1st came out from the battlefield...

tears i dropped never made a chance but lead to today;s end
i appreciate the moment with her, now i only can keep every memory in a fool's dreams
fading by time

all i did
was to prove how strong a love was
but love was too weak that cause the rose rotten
i tried juz to avoid more regret n disappointment i'll hav in the rest of my life
at least i've told everything
trying to revive the dying rose from rotten
but everything is impossible
when one's heart is no longer at the same place

her decision to break caused my stupid mistake
i tot i could lie myself in the disappeared posts to forget her
i deserved, for the wrong decision i can;t control like cold blooded mind i used to hav

i'll never blame her
i'll only blame for my past which my words never made her mind understand me more

i'll never find another lover, sweeter than u, precious than u...
it will always stay there like a song

i'm back to the same old spot
wif the lost of meaning of life i always never wanted to return for

i'm sorry to my friends, family...
i never post the pics i had wif her sweet smiles...
my phone broke down in just the perfect moment...
this is fate that fades everything after time being i guess...

life stil has to goes on
no matter how terrible a thing has ended
i'll never escape, bcoz i wont giv up on facing it...

today's dreams of holding hands together
tomorrow's nightmare of her left
somehow, this is the same old nightmare that always reminds me

whether a decision worth o not, i always hav a better answers...
for things i beliv from heart, a true love wont break even if the world ends...

爱之曲

爱你，不是因为你的美而已。。。

看着时间别再让它流浪。。。
有爱就有恨，或多或少。。。
想爱就别怕伤痛。。。

找一个最爱的，深爱的，相爱的，亲爱的人来告别单身。。。

太多太多的激情，闯进尘封已久的境地，让我们失去选择的余地。。。
拥抱着时刻，这一分一秒全都停止。。。
在屋顶唱着你的歌，在屋顶和我爱的人。。。
就这样被你征服，却断了所有退路。。。
forever love, 我只想用我这一辈子去爱你。。。

我失去过，更珍惜拥有。。。

爱，我却不能够给你我全部， 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的。。。
尽管我细心灌溉，你说不爱就不爱。。。
我的肩膀，没有力量，肩起你建筑的美丽假象。。。
爱只剩下无奈，我一直不愿再去猜。。。
你要离开，我知道很简单。。。

是不是拥有以后就会开始要失去。。。
如果这就是爱，在转身就该留下来。。。
看你头也不回地走掉，心里向火烧。。。
我用背叛自己，完成你的期盼。。。

有一种爱叫作放手，为爱放弃天长地久。。。
转身离开，分手说不出来。。。
终于看开爱回不来， 而你总是太晚明白。。。
精灵们冷冷目光，让我们坠落找彼此的脚下。。。
原来你，什么都不想要。。。
我们的爱，过了就不再回来，直到现在我还默默地等待。。。

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲，变成两部悲伤的电影。。。

结束无奈，承认失败。。。

是你决定我的伤心。。。
不是转身就能忘。。。
忘记你我做不到。。。
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖， 只是一切，结束太快。。。

i will never find another lover, sweeter than you
all my life, i prayed for someone like you, and all thank god that i've finally found you...

how do i live without you?

this life is difficult but it's a real deal...

把回忆扛在肩膀， 我贴上要小心轻放。。。
突然好想你，你会在哪里，过得快乐或委屈。。。
想念诗会呼吸的痛。。。
就请你给我多一点时间多一点温柔，不要一切都带走。。。
我想念你的笑，想念你的怀抱，想念你温柔的样子，和你身上的味道。。。
少了我的手背当枕头你习不习惯？

should hav post these pics in june -.-

it's been a while since i last post here
don worry i'm alive n i'm still able to write here

a new product instead of WARM dispenser

new scenery of glow in dark river

a reason u shouldn;t drink sugar cane brought by unknown sources

terrible traffic light position that may only allows a kancil to pass

this is what happen when weather too hot (maybe)

new category, CHILDDREN

this is what will happen if yr brake jam o forgot to release of handbrake

fuel economy benz

korean cars r new horny targets

a creative name

love of the coconut tree

the best home friendly security guard, protect u from monster as well

a dream school bus

polis help polis

this would b a perfect wedding ride

speechless -.-

a way to live is like a way to die

when u read the topic
u may think i'm crazy writting so
seriously in life, every step bring u close to death
that's why there's a song called "live like we're dying"
a meaningful song, asking everyone to appreciate life 

for me, when u're suffering
living has no different from dying
or even a solution to die do benefit the world in the end
some said doom day coming, what should i do?
i answered, we'll decide when it really happens

is really doom day coming? who knows, maybe it's a judgment day from the order of god

everyone do face their problems
troubles do visit like friend, o even a close friend
things u never know do happen in the end
world do change every moment, probably a good supporting is their sunrise and sun set

when there's no hope, i will look for a new hope, hoping the old hope do comes back
when luck turns bad, juz find another luck that will leads u better

when having family problem, juz avoid it b4 things get ugly
argue with family do not earn in the end of the say
the one who understand earns the most in the end
why? ppl who argue is always short sighted
so called ppl who destroy the world rather than maintain it

when plan a fails, go for plan b o come out with new plan c
what to do? life's always up and down, a rolling stone
the faster o the further it goes, the more problems visit

even if u hate your life, appreciate everyone moment as a gift
when u feel that's enough, juz end it, save the resource for the others waiting for doom day

change what is changeable, accept what is unchangeable
life's tough that makes anyone feel stress,tired and pressure

we do not blame anyone for it
like it then you thank this world
hate it then juz leave this world b4 u suffer more

i admit somehow i do hate what life had lead to
o rather it's the order from fate
but i scare of losing this dream
even if no one can promise for their tomorrow
die silently, everything end
ppl who hav their life on, will frustrated on how to take all your legacy u left to this world
that's why ppl do say suicide is a irresponsible action

when there's dream
juz go for it  b4 everything too late
giv up only when you die else DONT

movies' reviews may 2010

recently being run out of idea i guess
n i was surprised that i din update my blog for the previous whole month
and OMG, i'm surprised time pass that fast

recently i went hong kong and macau, last month
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=409503&id=817180117

that's the link to the picture album i took during vacation
too many pics to share here i can say

b4 i went hong kong,

i watched How to Train your Dragon in 3D
the 3D effect is surprisingly amazing
the movie gives message of hope 
such as u get to see how the injured dragon got to fly again
it;s kinda touching
the only disappointment for me is how can the main character lose his leg, it juz tell us how reality is.
overall a worth watching movie, glad i watched it in 3D

DayBreakers
a movie taken by the Australians, featuring from the hot trend of Vampire story
Yes, vampire, cold blood skin that farm n feed wif human blood
it's a pretty cool movie, telling how a vampire world can b
which type of blood they choose to hav wif their meals, pure human blood drinks, o even having "day vision" in their vehicles
the way some "savior" suggest the vampire to return as human, is a good reflection on a hot topic nowadays, asking human to become vegetarian and same mother nature earth
the only think i don like bout this movie, tremble(so called high frequency sharp sound) is kinda high that may cause yr ears sensitive wif this kinda effect

Ice Kacang Puppy Love
a movie directed by "ah niu", story edited from his first love, he even scarify to fund for the movie using his house as security
the movie has good story line, featuring malaysia 1980s life style, even can b a good movie for reference as malaysian;s cultural
from the title, i tot puppy love is for unserious love isn;t it? y don he named it first love o sth?
the movie does hav good movie shooting skill and background music
hopefully it's a good start from this new director
a worthy watching movie, characters that may reflect peoples around u

Iron Man 2
some called it AYAM man(west malaysia case)
some even edit it in IP Man 2 ;s poster which made a good LOL material
a long waiting movie, tho i may hav watch it later than anyone, it's still a worth watching movie
ppl do complain the storyline, the villains being too weak o even iron man only appeared 4times in the movie
for me, those r still acceptable, i like the funny parts inside, especially when the audi R8 was used as a suprising "transport"
there's a scene was missing if u all hav watched from the trailer, which pott(the female main character) kissed iron man's helmet n drop it from the sky, my guess is, probably iron man can;t navigate himself without the helmet's head up display. 
a worth watching movie, for actions, mecha and funny parts that bright up your day

had an exciting weekend
hopefully tomorrow is always a better day