back to the old stage...

the stage
somewhere i used to hav the happiest memory
it's now nth special but a normal sidewalk of a shopping mall

this is somewhere i passed thru everyday for this moment
and it's true i'm back to the old stage
in a difference of timing

life here is kinda bored i have to admit
for stupid reason to be independent here

i spend most of my time, surfing, watching movie on pps, playing with my phone
luckily i brought this antique notebook here for this boring moment


things i did on the first week here
i do meet a few friends from different classes
of coz i do meet up with some friends from kuching, and some old friends here
tried ice skate in sunway, been always wanted try this until i have the chance doing so nowadays
spent few times playing pool aka snooker here
went to genting in the midnight, enjoying expensive mcd there, viewing night view in the fog
it's been more than 10yrs even since i last been to genting
drove a car myself to 1 utama and witnessed a friend become malaysia champion of GT5 racing game

another problem i encounter is food n drink
how i wish i can juz cook instead of eating outside juz to save cost n for a healthier life
for drinks, i'm drinking mineral water tho nowadays

the only freedom that constrains my current situation, that is transport
how i wish i can have a car to drive here
the road here is just so smooth, but not those so called small roads
tho i;ve been searching for nice deal of cars around instead of bringing my small wife over

the old stage
used to be the place i wanted to come the most
it's now appear more than never even wake up from dreams
but the situation on the stage, is never like a fairy tale happy ever after
it's just another journey, under the fate's orders
for her happiness i know, i don regret for what really happened on this stage before


soon i'm going back home
truly a lovely place i would breathe happily

frustration cross the mind

dropping the coins in the wishing well for wishes to come true
the beautiful dreams, i never dare to open my eyes witness how true will it b

i'm nervous for what i'm doing
i never stop ever since the day fate brought me to this route

it may b surprises o nightmares

life's always full of challenge
trouble visits like a friend no matter what
which makes life an interesting world

today i happen to know some new friends
a lovely couple, bringing a baby around
a dream that i would die for
how admire can this b?

value of life
who would really appreciate?

revenge may b a way to survive
it may never b a way to live

fate that leads to an end...

i'll never know when will my last post here will be
as far as i know, i wont leave any regrets to this world

after life
to exchange the length of life, scarifies with the love from my family
a family that focus of money, instead of the future from the long term
that materialist is beyond than juz life

if i had died in juz another day, i may not know all these things
i juz happen to know, life's never been better ever since that day
human beings, congratulation to you all hav juz revealed of how a person u really r

step back home
nth but new bed, old bolster i used to hug for years, gone

i visited an old friend
i dropped my tears
for the tragedy happened to her

i thanked her
for telling me on how to appreciate life
tho i cannot promise when will i visit her again
i promised her, only to visit her on better tomorrows...

i never dare to know what will happen tomorrow
o even what will happen in the future
i will face it, i wont escape

live well, is always a greatest revenge
revenge for a better tomorrow

fate kept me away from death
chance leading me another place

life's always like a movie
good guys do not stay long
life's tough being a good man
at least i never regret to b myself for good faith

i've lost my ways
truly, i dono where to go
what to do
o even when death's after my shadow again

there is always a destroyer around
trouble visits like a friend
the reason that makes life interesting

an end is a rise of another begining
i'll live to a better tomorrow
til the days u deserved only to survive from worse future

even if i stop breathe one day
i'm clearly known as myself
i'm on a good faith to this world

the movie that tells...

when in love
it's always like being in a sweetest dreams

when love ends
it's always like a nightmare until you wake up

the nightmare when u woke up
u lose everything but memory

the sweetest memory that result the saddest scar

life's always like a movie
i watched the movie twice
juz bcoz the movie touch my heart

it may not b a movie fully loaded wif super stars
but a movie with only 3 main actors

the 1st time i watched, i almost drop my tears
the 2nd time i watched, i dropped my tears

the story is purely a love story
a touching story
a story that tell how strong love is

i may hav hurted by the past, i may not see any future, but i cherish what's called present
that's what i realised from the movie to my life
tho in real life, we might hav the same happy ending like the movie
at least the movie do tells what means love

fate brought me watching this movie
七天爱上你 Love At Seventh Sight

truely a story, that reflect on how everyone felt in relationship b4

life, at it's ending point...

operation flyover was a success
that the main objectives hav been well performed
another crazy thing i did juz few days b4 my exam
i teleported to KL, for a motor show, meet a friend, and carry my friend's present back
for slow process of pics, i apologise... as i din hav the chance for using my SLR these days

it was a 24hr mission i can say
i was lucky enough to save RM200 from booking the ticket last minute even the price has increased, guess it's fate that allowed me to do so


these days been focus my time on so called motorsport, for future rumor so called track that "heard will be appearing" in kuching starting next year
yes the project commence nx yr
so called big character said it is to "replace the current temporary track in the CITY"
and yes i never know the so called temporary track in inside the CITY
i tot the rumor was cancelled, hopefully it will come true

track will b somewhere in kuching between 15mile to 17mile
a track length of 3.8kilometers, slightly bigger than the track located in johor bahru
will this really happen in this borneo land where others known us as staying on top of the trees?



life's always packed with joy
yes i know there's few species that makes the world complicated, that i can feel their eyes being red
sorry to say i will never b yr revenge target
another day u proved yrself for not living a brighter future
never let life down, life never comes easy


being a MAN, we don prove to others on how weak we are
when your WILL isn;t stronger, strengthen your heart
there's always a window open, outside the window it'll always b an endless beautiful sky

it juz sad to know recently someone suicide juz for a worthless girl
it juz proved to them, that this ruined species has won

it's never the end of the world
hope will always b there waiting to be found

life is always up and down
that;'s what makes life interesting

on this stage, everyone is their own main character in lives
it all depends how they decide their ending will be

how valuable a person's life is?
depends on what the person has done until the moment the person never open their eyes

生命舞台

路
是自己选择的
选错了，就没有回头的余地

幸福
由自己掌握，不是由他人决定

感觉
或许，会盖过理智
从而让人犯错

冷静
再冷静的我，也会为在乎的东西而失去理智

疲惫
或许，对身边的一切感到绝望

希望
一直没破灭，但从未被他人停止破坏

裂痕
做的再完美，也因为一点失误而成为无可原谅的罪过

后悔
或许，这是他人选择的纪念品
至少，我不会留下任何遗憾

爱一个人，好难
用心爱一个人一辈子，我做得到。。。
但往往爱上的，只不过是在眼前路过那最熟悉的陌生人。。。

我爱你，你爱他，他爱她，她爱他
或许真的，这年代的认真的忘了爱自己

有些人，选择来到这世上为钱作为机器
钱，真的能使鬼去魔。。。
也让人在这个年代失去灵魂

有机会来到这世上
就好好珍惜，也别让他人糟蹋自己的灵魂。。。
生命只有一次，结束了，一切都会消失。。。

别总以为自己是这生命舞台悲剧中的主角。。。
有许多人，没机会好好的生活。。。
甚至，不愿的离开这世界。。。

未来由自己选择，因为自己才是这生命舞台的主角。。。
别被判自己的灵魂。。。

may it desappear with the wind

memories may be the only things it left
in this tough route

tears
for what i've lost
and i'm back to the very own same ground

i swear
for every relationship, i fully deposit my true heart
until the moment the feeling is killed
should i regret or not? i never, just because i dont do things i will regret for

life's tough
even tougher being a good man
no matter how tired i will be, i will never betray my soul

if i've hurt you, please forget about me
that;s the only way i may have to release both of us

words' truth, the more you loved a person, the more you'll end up with hate

i sincerely tell you, i didn;t turn to the astray way
for what you've chosen, i respect your decision from heart
because i've got no ways to keep your freedom

whenever you go, whatever you do, i'll be right here waiting for you
this phase shall wait until the right person appear

in my life, i only hope love shall appear for once and for all
to love one person in one life
and it's impossible to achieve
probably when i visit the new world

i look into your eyes, listen to your heartbeat
all because i want to know i'm living in this true world not only a dream
but it all end up a terrible nightmare

things i do to prevent the nightmares from happening
because eternity is never everyone's dream
maybe it's true, some people come to this world for happy life
of which they be with a person whenever they are happy, leaving a person whenever they're not

difference from me? i rather choose to love once
i'm always a lucky person
things hardly happen in a worse way
at least my life deserve to choose someone better
if i were to thank the chances i'm given all the time, i guess it would be god

i must admit, i live in a happy life
a life i always have chances to get things i want
a life i've been given many chances to avoid disasters
a life i do not leave any regret

like a song i've heard around, everyone love other but forgot to love themselves

no matter how my life will lead to
i will never lay low
because i can always enjoy my life like a movie
a movie that will never end until the day my last breathe

to love a person now? i rather choose to love my car, just for my own satisfaction
i'm always serious to my life, that's why i don;t do things i will regret for
if today i should feel regret? why not the others regret more?
all i can say is, i gain my luck in favor of being good faith

for love? i guess i'll just have to tell how a feeling of a gay
gay love another which is far beyond any others
they do not care on how others' views, even sex, they just fall in love with each others' soul
hard to accept? there's always a feeling stronger than anything, that is love
(don't worry, i'll never be a gay -.-)