牛年賀語

祝各位新年快樂, 牛年行大運!!!~~~~
(希望是牛市好啦 -.-)

很感謝各位的祝賀語, 本人非常感激...

今年忘了來我家的親戚朋友們, 請明年再來吧~~~~

another year

it's been too long since i last touch my keypad in order to update my blog here
n it always been raining these days, o even flood in the city
the strange thing is, it never has any lightning in these heavy rains...

happy new year to everyone who r reading now
tho i may b late for greeting such thing but chinese new year is coming as well
hope everyone can have a fresh new year

indeed
another year juz a matter of time
it doesn;t take much of my attention at all
maybe i'm not surprise o even interested to this world at the moment

in the beginning of this year
lots of problems i face, i solved, yet there's still endless troubles coming up
today is the 1st day i felt so stressed up
for this year...

fate to take a great joke for me
of showing me sth reflects of my failure
some said this is not my fault since i had not been appreciated n why such thing would worth for my feeling to suffered so much
i do not care bout anything from hell or what, but i do very mind of such case which i gonna suffered for quite a period of time

somehow
as usual
i lost my way on this invisible map
i no longer see any stars at the moment
no one can guide
only can rely of the lies i hear every moment
life without living others is really meaningless

i'm worthless that i can;t even donate a single blood
juz feel sorry for ppl who need blood like my type

i do not know what i really wan
every decision i;ve made
which leads me to the way what i hav choosen
as if i'm watching a movie

i'm resigning from my job soon
n concentrate full time for my course\
in order to cover the lost of time i;ve made

thou lit up ma flame of revenge
looks like things gonna get tough for me
i dono how will i bcome
at least i still live wif my own will of dreams
even if i've lost everything

for greater days
i hope everything comes to de end soon
this is not for if i should fall, but i wont let u fall me down
maybe it;s time for some show down

some entertainment (forgot to post -.-)

some pics to share here of some events that is rarely seen in the public n some entertertainments

updates for year end of 2008, ma ride

these are some of my recent mods, DIY, further mod will b post soon, enjoy ~

interested wif anything juz let me know then

hav a 9s day!!!

被迫的覺悟

這複雜的世界, 好男人這個名詞對我來說, 已都如化石般的不存在了...
這是要為那些崩潰的男人所說的話...
別怪這些男人的無能, 只能怪自己的愚昧, 把他們的心推向了死亡的邊緣..
也難怪, 男人的數目比女人越來越少...

這現實欲醜陋的世界,
我選擇了破壞, 而不是容入這醜陋的世界...
因為我已沒有了選擇的權力...

我為愛, 被這現實糟蹋了...
愛並沒錯, 而是我選擇的錯誤...

這入詛咒般的命運, 不管我做什麼
也不能從這禁令解脫...

或許, 我真的把感情看得太重..
也許, 我應該把這心思中心分布到其他領域..

是時候醒了...

liars lie around the sad world

everyone do lies
anyone must

juz feel like expressing my frustrations here
if u feel i'm calling u a liar, admit then b4 i take off yr mask for yr ugly face that may die the world wif yr lies

somehow juz feel like there;s no future o even tomorrow
the world's been worsen n worsen wif the ugly species from human being

world is so dark
yet i stil can;t see a single star
the must hav all sunk into the sea
since they don appear in the sky

never make a promise u can;t make
never keep a secret u can;t hide
never make a lie if u;re a bad liar
never live on this world if u wan to die
never pretend to b clever if u're stupid
never try anything if u dono anything
stop spoiling the resources to the beautiful human in this world

being tiring these days
maybe i should go back to the mother nature to recharge my mind
somehow the world is spoiling my memory i hav on this world
everytime i try to sleep
the only thing came into my mind
i wasted another day meaninglessly

my novel
i can;t continue anymore
maybe i should juz buirn them
i shouldn;t keep that thing alive under my hands

christmas, great, everyone is able to do anything they like even if there;s great financial crisis

which stage had i gone
probably juz another from blank to blank story
ended meaninglessly

i wasted my nites
i wasted my weekends
i wasted my time
i wasted my life

i did nth to this world
juz feel sad without reason why

fate being juz like a movie
no matter what i do
i juz feel like
i'm juz watching wif what i'm doing

that same dreams
for no reason it repeat frequently meaninglesly

i'll juz need some sleep then
good nite to this world
mother earth
i love u for the world i chose to born on

i'm tired
yet i can;t let go n giv up yet
til de end of the world

又一年的盡頭

年復一年, 又到了盡頭
今年的目標也未完成認何一個
但達成了出乎預料的驚喜...

這年頭到底, 要找個喜歡女人還真難
或許, 真的像他人所說, 我的要求太高了
但我仍相信這句話, 人不愛就沒有要求
選擇可是會影響一輩子, 而我能做的是
在我的人生, 盡情保持完美, 不留下任何遺憾...

我很愛那片藍天
我愛那布滿著星星的黑夜
讓流星滑過那烏黑的星海
但長久以來, 我對之也沒有印象
記意最終也只留在時鐘未敲打的那一刻
雖然曾有天使停留, 但不知不覺如夢舨醒來的消失了...

往往這世界不如自己所想像的要求完美
而市我要配合這世界以追求完美...

我也希望這惡夢的消失...

也許我真的很失敗
改變不了任何事
心死了只能留下這軀體在這人間為我的悲傷哭泣

人總要話的有意義
最起碼, 我不會放棄
我會在事業上表達我的生存能力

我要超越自己, 以對死去的心靈做個交代...