life for not being a played puppet

in life, everyone has their own decisions, route they choose
many people do make choices at their own will
but not the right choice that follow everyone's mind

i may have been caring about how a person should live with another in this so called relationship
of which i've forgot what i really wanted
of which my life been played like a puppet, that i never like being a toy

i would just fall in love with my car or others that satisfy me on road with joy
i rather spend money working every single cent just for them
at least i know they wont betray me, unless i just crash her

love's beautiful
that's what i believe in, as always
people who tend to destroy it, sorry
i hope you're right so you wont regret
you've just make this world uglier, not mine but yours
my will shall remain strong

i always wanted to say, i'm sorry, i'm never good for anyone
today, i just want to someone i should
life's hard being a good man

whether if i'm right or wrong
i just know, i wont do things that make me regret
i do things that wont make me regret for the rest of my life

i do things is good faith, not only for myself
because i'm not selfish,
but the ugly world do not appreciate for my efforts

life's short
i do know to enjoy the world til the last breathe
i do desperate for someone who will always stay with me, for someone special
i wont care about how others make their world an ugly place
all i know is, i wont let anything change my will

like i said, i hope you're right for what you've done
i don mind if i've made a stupid mistake
all i know is, i wont regret for the route i choose
because i'm not anyone's toy
of which, everyone deserve the word freedom for their lives

torn scars...

is it time or is it not?
steps in fate lead to today's fair day
is this called fate/?

time is always thing i scared of
today as lovely couple loving each others as if cannot live without each others
tomorrow the most terrible nightmare brought to life

life's always full of miserable...
we planned and still we got nothing we really want
to be responsible to our lives, we live for a better tomorrow, to witness the world to treat us fair

my heart bleeds
ever since the first scar that has been torn
treating someone from heart, lead that someone to leave
had i really done wrong in my life?

who knows
time will just prove everything
right or wrong, it just tell me i'm not the one who should regret for unhappy past

to be fair
how many people around the world really be responsible to their world
how many people will tell the truth until the end of life

the world is just ugly
just because these peoples choose to live in their ugly world
they torn the world apart
they just prove on how a poor quality on their personality

i never hate someone until they make me hate them
it's not my intention to hate them
it's their low behavior to their own life makes me hate them

does life has to be like fireworks that has the brightest moment which last within seconds?
can;t we just stay above the never ending space like the star leading people who are lost in the middle of the ocean?

i admit i'm very tired from heart
which mentally sick
but i will never lay low in my life
i will just prove to this species how what a regretting mistakes they had done in life

you dare you may challenge me
all i know is, my mind will always stay cool as usual me
i never changed, i only go for the best in life
i never do things without hope
and i will never put my life in a result that has no future

you tear the world apart
your life will be torn by the world
for the ugly world of your cause

even if i bleed
my blood shall never meet the end
i have a true heart in my life, that's what i never give up

life, movie reviews...

movie reviews, like i used to do

twilight saga : eclipse


this movie that makes the teen girls crazy, the movie that even beat avatar(if not mistaken)
what's so special bout this movie anyway?
long time ago, i watched the movie that i never imagine i can juz sit there n watch
reason? juz to find out what's girls' thinking -.-
i watched, the 1st twilight -.-
special thing i found inside
the guy, so called edward, look sooooo make up by many bottles of lotions (i'll tell u reason why later)
the gal, so unbelievable, not that pretty -.-, maybe that's the reason girls watched, they think they look better than BELLA
a movie only the coolest part is when the vampires play baseball
the movie is juz lame that makes me sleepy

new moon: i din watch so no review

eclipse:
i watched this, tot i could make someone happy, yet it bcome the last movie we dated
i almost fell asleep in this movie
inside, the gal, again, get much "not that pretty"
the movie, camera shooting skill like the 80s when bruce lee started perform in front of camera
the movie teach us bad thing, misleading info that ruin the meaning of original LOVE

why? the movie show how american love 3p i guess,
a gal in love between 2 guy, somemore immortals -.-
the gal juz couldn;t pick who;'s the most suitable
the gal did the only right thing, love someone from heart even if they r monsters
the gal tried to keep the pet dog so she kill another immortal

tell me, if your love one do like what BELLA did, how many of u going to giv up life o choose to go mental hospital? i guess the movie cause more disaster
ruined the meaning of love


fine, i'll go to another movie
this is how twilight should b... a truly better movie
ladies n gentlemen, let me present u


a nicely filmed movie, entertaining than the boring movie
creative than the original lame storyline


this is a movie, someone special(used to b) accompanied me


a good movie, that the story never ends, a good movie that reminds many of us, how childhood is, feeling even juz from toys, that show appreciations, quite touching



since i'm back to freedom as b4, a single life that time is not a wasted excuse for me
a change for my decision, watching every movie i wan, while i can


a movie that tell, how dream can change a ppl's mind

if only everyone know, where they r from, in the dreams
a good movie, almost spoiled the mood by a friend who told me it isn;t nice
luckily i concentrate enough else i'll end up like some ppl who watch the 2nd o 3rd times


then, another animated movie
a cool movie from a trailer

after watching it, feel like, juz a show for kids -.-

prevously
i watched this cool movie

movie that comes out from the steps of harry potter
guess more n more r coming out, a guy wif magical power, tell how ppl can dream to hav magic

last nite
i watched this
not for angelina jolie

overall, a movie telling u, beliv in your right, better than beliv in others
to fool the world but never lie to your heart

a good movie can always b watch again n again
it';s like memory, it's everything that keep in yr heart as souvenir
whether who u;re watching wif, friends, family, love one
good movie r always worth to watch the second time

life is not a decision making game, but the value a life should hav
emotion is always the greatest enemy
but the greatest enemy makes u stronger as well as patient

looking for more movies, juz bcoz my life's like a movie
the movie i move my steps

aug pic for haha purpose

'it;s been a while since i last post these image
well i guess i spent lots of time juz to collect all of them to present them here


lol, if u know what that means

a fish back from surgery after watch salt, wanan hav lip like angelina jolie

a good way to boost the sales on watermelon

master of all photographing skill~ even a bird can't distract

awas = danger, sawa = regnad(they expect the word can turn when viewing from mirror)

good bmw advertisement when no one can handle it

what do u react if u happen to sit in such car?

how bout somemore? when a ride provide washroom publicly

WARNING: following contents may b harmful, especially for muslim friends
read at your own risk

i beliv many muslim has cat as their pet rather than they fated not to hav any dogs
what if the muslim pet love something alcoholic?

i guess these "friends" hardly giv a change

jackie chan can drive this way but not everyone can follow

when ur heart is gone, it juz look so bad which i remembered u as, the headache killar

a imitation of panda bear that MAYBE everyone can afford

it juz so cute

i guess this is done by hardcore friends from winnie the pooh

i wonder what happen if they happen to bcome more furious from the ORIGINAL skil

i guess this is a rejected imitation panda

this one's cute

hmm, mini panda?

now fish learn to smoke, smoke r everywhere

speechless -.-

6wheel car, normally featured on big truck o lorry

i'm speechless wif this also =.=

the direction is juz misleading

a great pic took within second i guess

a cooler? o a turbo?

this is the 1st time i think kancil is made for

i wonder if today audi really announce to hav such car

tesla tower, feature in famous game, red alert

her hair bcome fish? o izzit....

a good place to hide yr car other than car parks

another speechless pic

look more like a smile on a mask

local words -.-

mutant coconut

let's end wif a smile

when crisis strike like a friend

i beliv many ppl heard of this song



well
true trouble visits like a friend
no matter how much u solve to enjoy the peaceful days
i guess that's what make like more interesting

a friend, recently faced a crisis on relationship

one day, he suddenly told me, his gf n secret gf bcomes friends in FB
the funny thing is, i laughed at him for his rolling stone act
his mind almost get crazy i guess
for a man, when face such situation, sure get panic n what

well, he said both the secret gf din add the gal
but his gf stil act cool n treat him good everyday
i told him if i were him, the normal the way a gf is if they knew everything, the more dangerous as if u're putting yr head in a lion's hungry mouth
he was scared that time i guess
what if he lost someone important in his life?
i did wish him luck

after a while
probably when i visit this friend
he told me, they did get well together
i was surprised for this happy happy couple, but how?
he juz told me, he juz dump the secret gf
his gf, maybe knows something's wrong
i guess many couple will ended this point for lost of loyalty
but his gf, a big view person, forgiv him
of coz i'm happy for this friend
envy them, a guy who was playful, been forgiv by a gal who appreciate everything


when i look back, i wasn;t so lucky for the very latest relationship
guess there's no need to mention since its no longer important
juz the lost of my relationship din cause more heart breaking moment around but more appreciation between couple
for my friends, whoever in love o not, appreciate someone who appear in your life
don ever do stupid thing to test how strong someone can love you
the result is never a best answer u're looking for...
love someone, appreciate from heart, not wif a narrow view, unless u can never see a bright sun above the sky, far far away...

Curse of the bleeding rose

from the beginning, to say in an irresponsible way, we’re never suitable, her angel appearance made me to give a try on matching…

it’s hard to believe, or rather should I say, it’s hard to accept, when someone you loved, ask you to break with her, let love die in your own hand instead of your love’s one...
someone you love, tells you she decide when to break when you're in love with her...

I never want to believe, the day she wanted to break up, using better words, to return as friends…
The whole week god may had tear at the same time, while my heart is bleeding…

Her decision made both of us hurt very very much…
Expressing my feelings and sadness here, I hurt her and she cried…
That’s why I choose to let the posts disappear just to stop her tears…
I’m the only one to be blamed because I’m the one who wrote everything

I always hope she’ll regret for her decision she made
Grabbing little hopes, always wanted to started a new relationship with her
Breaking my rules, for things I’ll never do for a girl as promise to my own principle,,,

When I asked her to stop crying, apologize for my fault on the posts…
She said there are always things that we both can solve together…

I’m sorry I dig the past out…
All I was doing was to avoid any regret in the rest of my life…
At least I should be happy for her, she’s still living in her own life
Unlike my past friend, who never had a chance to make any decision to stay…

I’m not born to hurt anyone in this world…
I guess today is the pay back from the past…
For words never made her understand me more…

her decision to break, she said she ever think about me, but without reason only her satisfaction...

From the beginning, I was never perfect for her…
Not in age, personality, background, mind set, dreams and everything…
Even our love is different, I choose to love someone with everything it got to takes to stay with her the rest of my life…

For her, I guess everything for her depends on her emotion…
Her emotion result our relationship, like fireworks
Fireworks that bright the sky beautifully, but it never last long…
Ended with smokes, and disappeared…
We had loved each others very much, it just ended too fast…

For her happiness, I should respect her decisions…
I may be the foolish person in this world, knew I’ll never succeed from grabbing more hopes on her, I knew I would end up with more disappointments…

The love she had on made me do so…
When think of her smile, it’s just like generating luck to my life…

I won’t regret doing all this, at least I know, there’s always things impossible…
At least I knew, I appreciate the happy memory with her love…
whether everything worth or not, i guess this question is more important to her

she may be over protected by her surrounding, or danger hardly come to her...
she never had my complicated steps in life, or never know how ugly the world is...
trying to make life simple, live my life with a smile, i was told childish all because i solve things in simple ways, just because i ever solve more complicated stuff she never knew...
for me, i create future with my future, while she creates future from the past...

I’m always the same person, I’m cleared with my mind set since long time ago…
Decision I’ve made, rarely made me regret for what I did…

Things I told, rarely a lie, but may become a joke to my own life…
Everything I ever said to you, words I’d been repeating, are true…

That night, I dropped my tears in front of her…
I guess my tears are meaningless, that lead to an end for our love…
even i told her i knew my ex married, she said i still let go my very 1st relationship...

i’ll never find another lover sweeter than you, precious than you…
Thanks for the song, a good listening song that curse my life to your love very much…

loving someone who wont gives any promise on your love, it's like a time bomb...
loving her from heart and she tells you she hope to find someone who love her more...
Dreams may have taken control on my decisions, I guess this is the reality after the blind love…
Having all happiness in dreams, wake up losing everything in reality as nightmares…

its been a long time, had drinks that made my mind blank, let time forwards quickly while body was drunk...
heart bleeds with sadness...
sadness of love i believe in, never make love last for so called forever...

of which, her emotion is stronger than the love i had on her
i'm selfish i wrote all this, that i shouldn;'t deserve the chance to express my down life
she's right for her decision made
i'm blamed because everything i do made her step backward...

good bye, a forever friend...

a friend, used to b my classmate when we were in secondary school

she used to teased me when i was kinda short that time
a cheerful gal that always smile n makes many ppl's school life a lot happier

she's someone i chased for 3 yrs, yes i failed to win her heart coz i'm never good enough for her as i'm always shy

i remember the time i was wif my 1st love
she accompanied me go n buy a diamond necklace

when my 1st love broke wif me
she even ask me to fly over to find her which she's willing to pay for me

i appreciate for what she did

i guess u would hav scold me stupid if u knew i juz destroyed my relationship
but thanx for being part of the memory in my study life

i paid my respect for her from tears
remember her as a friend as always
rest in peace my friend

life's short, i'll appreciate every moment i hav, so good bye...