deep cold thoughts

recently
what appear in my mind is
past present but not much of future

feel lost
i did everything i can juz to achieve my targets
but i don see any steps closer to her
to everything i tried to do
y would i being like like a fool chasing the moon everyniteS? this is what everyone been wondering for me

o m i being too negative?
i tried to bring my dreams to reality straightly
yet i was wrong for not creating dream in real life
o had i been investing for an answer i never wanted for


somehow
most ppl would care n mind from the begining for a stupid thing
that is caring bout yr other part whether they r stil virgin o 1st kiss these stuffs
i admit i'm one of that
as if u;re choosing a car that need to b fully 1st hand

when in deep thought
if the other part of yr life who is yr lover is not a virgin but he o she is the one who accompany u for the rest of yr life
the most suitable
for what his o her mistakes ever done juz bcoz of being stupid
does that really matters?

think big... farther
somehow there;s somethings u gonna break my mind through
sad world isn;t it?
the person u love is never the person accompany u for the rest of yr life in reality

only to failed to the deepest point of life
in order to raise to the highest point of life?
maybe u enjoy the raise of being higher n higher n reach the highest point being satisfied

i dont know
i lost confiden day by days
what can i do?
it juz feels like walking to death every seconds
but it's true we're closer to death every moment

we cannot extent the time we hav in life
what we can do is fully use up the time

for me
if i can't get everything... then i'll destroy everything
instead of being in nightmare
maybe i should share my nightmates






yesterday i juz put on my neo's new sound system
but it din perform well juz bcoz of a bit 'aeroplane sounds' which is so annoying
when it comes to louder
it would disappear
does that mean i hav to put it loud all the time?
should there b a solution? perhaps

nx week start overtime working coz of peak period of audit firm
work hard looo~~~

nx plan for neo?
performance o go for looks?
performance would b try up what some other neo user told me
when reach 120km/h, the true power only comes

looks? maybe i'll juz get some lightnings stuff for my doors since there's no light n get angel eyes n 2 o 3 sets HID on