another year

it's been too long since i last touch my keypad in order to update my blog here
n it always been raining these days, o even flood in the city
the strange thing is, it never has any lightning in these heavy rains...

happy new year to everyone who r reading now
tho i may b late for greeting such thing but chinese new year is coming as well
hope everyone can have a fresh new year

indeed
another year juz a matter of time
it doesn;t take much of my attention at all
maybe i'm not surprise o even interested to this world at the moment

in the beginning of this year
lots of problems i face, i solved, yet there's still endless troubles coming up
today is the 1st day i felt so stressed up
for this year...

fate to take a great joke for me
of showing me sth reflects of my failure
some said this is not my fault since i had not been appreciated n why such thing would worth for my feeling to suffered so much
i do not care bout anything from hell or what, but i do very mind of such case which i gonna suffered for quite a period of time

somehow
as usual
i lost my way on this invisible map
i no longer see any stars at the moment
no one can guide
only can rely of the lies i hear every moment
life without living others is really meaningless

i'm worthless that i can;t even donate a single blood
juz feel sorry for ppl who need blood like my type

i do not know what i really wan
every decision i;ve made
which leads me to the way what i hav choosen
as if i'm watching a movie

i'm resigning from my job soon
n concentrate full time for my course\
in order to cover the lost of time i;ve made

thou lit up ma flame of revenge
looks like things gonna get tough for me
i dono how will i bcome
at least i still live wif my own will of dreams
even if i've lost everything

for greater days
i hope everything comes to de end soon
this is not for if i should fall, but i wont let u fall me down
maybe it;s time for some show down