My will

1st week i stopped working
1st day i suffered from bored ism
it makes me wanna crazy that also being staying in front of screen looking for the same old things
yet i'm too lazy to study at the moment
maybe things juz made me slack so much from it

pressures din really push me much on my study
i don even know what i really wan
o even to satisfy me to study

i always remind myself, of my will i always hav
but the will was weak
i was tired
only to sleep which is the thing i hate of all time = wasting time

maybe a bit haze make me not feeling well
headache, cold, even my eyes feel pain when turning from side to side

i din open n read a single lecturer notes
n totally forgot today i should b having test for F7 -.- i was like WTF is going on

until when i reach class late
i felt something hot drop from my nose
i was nose bleeding for no reason
after then, i'm now feel revived
it juz make me feels so good
probably i was "overheated" these days -.-

at least i'll need to rearrange everything like my study
my will is always with me
it juz my will wont allow to hurt myself
indeed it make things smoother

and come to the same old problem
guess i'll juz hav to wait for her to appear
at least i wont giv any chance to fail myself
not even a little gap that pull me away from my life i wanted