deep cold thoughts

recently
what appear in my mind is
past present but not much of future

feel lost
i did everything i can juz to achieve my targets
but i don see any steps closer to her
to everything i tried to do
y would i being like like a fool chasing the moon everyniteS? this is what everyone been wondering for me

o m i being too negative?
i tried to bring my dreams to reality straightly
yet i was wrong for not creating dream in real life
o had i been investing for an answer i never wanted for


somehow
most ppl would care n mind from the begining for a stupid thing
that is caring bout yr other part whether they r stil virgin o 1st kiss these stuffs
i admit i'm one of that
as if u;re choosing a car that need to b fully 1st hand

when in deep thought
if the other part of yr life who is yr lover is not a virgin but he o she is the one who accompany u for the rest of yr life
the most suitable
for what his o her mistakes ever done juz bcoz of being stupid
does that really matters?

think big... farther
somehow there;s somethings u gonna break my mind through
sad world isn;t it?
the person u love is never the person accompany u for the rest of yr life in reality

only to failed to the deepest point of life
in order to raise to the highest point of life?
maybe u enjoy the raise of being higher n higher n reach the highest point being satisfied

i dont know
i lost confiden day by days
what can i do?
it juz feels like walking to death every seconds
but it's true we're closer to death every moment

we cannot extent the time we hav in life
what we can do is fully use up the time

for me
if i can't get everything... then i'll destroy everything
instead of being in nightmare
maybe i should share my nightmates






yesterday i juz put on my neo's new sound system
but it din perform well juz bcoz of a bit 'aeroplane sounds' which is so annoying
when it comes to louder
it would disappear
does that mean i hav to put it loud all the time?
should there b a solution? perhaps

nx week start overtime working coz of peak period of audit firm
work hard looo~~~

nx plan for neo?
performance o go for looks?
performance would b try up what some other neo user told me
when reach 120km/h, the true power only comes

looks? maybe i'll juz get some lightnings stuff for my doors since there's no light n get angel eyes n 2 o 3 sets HID on

Everything or Nothing...

chinese new year holiday gone
hav to go working again

valentine's day
what another day

most ppl curious wif how was my valentine's day
n some of them even curious n come n ask if i had dating that nite
well
i had class that nite

but in the morning
i did sth what i think it worth to b meaningful

some of my friends think i was being crazy
for doing such think n spending so much n being too much 'generous'
what i can say is
love is blind

diamonds r forever

i hope it's true

can anyone tell what;s the alphebet of the necklace?

last nite i juz view my CAT result

what a damn joke is

i passed the tougher subjects but i can't even pass a medium subject that i've resit b4

last time 48, now juz 49 n the passing mark is 50!!!

what the hell in this world?

i hav to stick to the plan

i wont let this exam waste half of my year

i'll go for CBE n go for ACCA lv2 exams this june n dec

recenlty

working for an audit firm

the staffs inside r very nice n friendly

can say not much pressures inside

like this company

soon o later would come out a new ride

a new 'small wife'

maybe i'll leave my current 'small wife' at home

n taking her out when the weather is good

this is what i planning for my new small wife

will take CBE of t4 asap

what ever it come

i'll overcome them

coz i wont escape anymore

minds appear: choosing life companion wif choosing ride

today i washed up all the cars n vacuum the cars at home
well kinda tired is true
what appear in my mind is
sth kinda weird but reasonable

what i hav to mention is there's no offence o what but juz some words of thoughts

i wan thinking of if choosing cars n choosing a partner for life time
choosing car juz like marry 'small wife'
u can find "small wife" anywhere as long as u hav money
of coz small wife r illegal o what but cars r not
u can buy when u hav money n use any of them as u like
make sure u don tell yr 'small wife' u wanan sell her o wanan marry 'new small wife' in front of her else she's gonna angry n jealous
keeps on bully u like bringing problems to u like not going the way u wan o stop at the point u wan
pretty strange rite?
beliv in me
do take good care of yr 'small wife' as they always accompany u when u travel

about choosing life time partner
well
if u choose wrong u gonna waste lots of time n money
what appears in my mind

it juz like choosing pet

no offence eh
juz like if u choose the wrong pet as yr pet
u gonna forgot bout yr pet soon n lost love on yr pet
somemore this is a bad new for yr pet also

conclusion

when choosing 'small wife'
u can choose them whenever u hav money rite?

but when choosing life time partner
it juz like choosing pet

if u choose the wrong one
it's a lose-lose situation
if u choose the right one
it gonna bring u endless n unforgetable memory

My wishes over their airspace, My life i trade in for yr pains...

Chinese New year's coming in days
wishes all my friends n relatives n net friends all happy chinese new year!!!
hav a better n better days!!!

tho b4 cny i had an accident wif 1 of the sport car in town
well
at least it;s a small case
easily can b settle wif juz money
tho bro hav look for a nice ride for me for my ride replacement
it din pass from dad's approval
sweat i rather don wanan wait for a new proton saga for months unless they hav stock for me to hav a good New Year...

tho the car's front look isn't nice
i hav arrange a time to paint my car n paint some where else o look special
wil giv a surprise to my friends

recently i look for a new job also
after i intro my friend there for interview
i was attracted also n went interview
then juz now i class there's another classmate got attracted also
wow
what a team we hav here

after operation road runner
my senior got chased out from his home
a totally reversed situation than mine
pity him so i went search for new places for him to stay like places that wanan rent
well
things seem to seetle down also

others stuff than juz the paint for my car
i wanna upgrade the soundsystem , HID kits n a exhaust system
maybe not going for full piping of exhaust system
that might spend over thousand
well
need to do it slowly unless there's a good deal of loan
17" rims, full set of soundstream system, hmm... maybe can go for bodykit also

this year gonna take down the 2 MG gundam 1 is full burst mode of strike freedom n another unicon

pity my bro's pet iguana in his office seems very sick
makes me feel sad also
even dinner time i not in the mood for food also
hope it'll b fine
coz it hav been in there since the 1st day i work wif my bro
sighed

found out jokes these days
y jokes?
such as
like u hav a pet dog
1 day it ran away
waiting for it to come back 1 day
when u found out where the dog is
it's wif a new owner
the dog came to u
what i can say is
juz another dog which belongs to others now
hope to b a good owner else the dog's gonna regret for running away

these days i met ppl weird
what a 'friend' who is older than me
but life seems not sincere to her
n wth thing is
when i bz this 'friend' said i'm not sincere o what?
WTH in this world?!
tot older age would hav more mature mind
must b another people's world who wanan break the perfect things into pieces juz bcoz of selfish lousy uncivilised mindless 'people'
conclusion: not everyone's normal from their normal look

from what happening this moments
i remmeber a story
that once a trader interested to get some goods from the supplier
the trader knew the supplier from the advertisement
when the supplier got the call from trader's interest
the supplier gets excited wif the deal as he may hav more chances to sell of his goods to the trader
they arraged a time meeting
n the sick thing is
the trader appears to b different from the call n made the supplier confused n lost of hope
in the end the supplier rather giv up the hope taking all goods back
since the trader don seems to hav the intention to deal in trade

Conclusion: never hold too much hope in juz a phone call, it;s always better to meet up in order to understand what others' having in their mind

tho many things happen n happen
things hav to b solve n solved would come wif new puzzles
but this is what life means
that;s where the fun n value of life is...
i'll never giv up on things i wan
even if i spent all the money today
motivations for me to earn more is greater than what i would spend
always welcome yr future

burning of life, in order to keep the shadow away

the light start burns
of a little candle

what is the meaning to light up a candle?>
n what lights up the candle?

to me
a candle lights in order to keep the shadow away
n to brighten a place
tho it maybe b small place been brighten
it stil kept the shadow in range

what if it's lit n blown?
the whole space returns to filled shadow
then does anyone remember the candle ever lit?

life's the same
u burn yr life in order to keep yr space brighten
o to bring the light to others
but when time comes
u lit
no more brighten spaces than the dark shadow

in order to keep the nightmares away
even a little candle
we tried to lights up another candle
b4 we lit
we gav the other candles our principles
of what we r meant to light up
in order to brighten more space wif more candles

tho it maybe b scary when u're the only 1 who lights up
don worry
slowly u'll find another candle to lights up
as if this is a genesis
create the world
create the world of life

then more space would b brightened n brighter
as long as the candles keeps on light themselves
candles burn themselves in order to brighten others' world

at least b4 the candle is totally lit
there will b a candle holding the will to lights up
continue searching for another candles to light wif
accompany n sharing the same mind
the same principles

same to our life
my life yr life their life
no one wans to live in a meaningless life as long as they breathe
we breathe in order to burn our life
while we burn our life we creates

we creates in order to brighten others' world
we keep on searching the right candles
either the companion of our life o the candles that would share the same principles

at least b4 we get lit
there'll stil b another candle that keeps on lighting up themselves
from the lights we passed to them
the hope, the principles, the dreams, the meaning of life

tho it may b suffering to burn yrself up
at least u left yr footprints in the world

no matter how long u'll lights up
do light yrself to the brightest
that's b memorised by others even the shadows
bcoz that would b a special light that scares the shadow away

tho wind o rain may get u lit
do evacuated from it
even if u met such incident
never giv up
as long as u're stil able to light yrself up

never giv up hope
the other candles would bring the same light lighting yrself up
the light which u passed to them b4

u never know how long would u burn yr life
at least light yrself to the nicest flame

i lights up myself
juz bcoz i wanna get the shadows away
looking for the right candles to pass the lights

at least even if i lit
there's stil other candles holding the light i passed them

do appreciate life
bcoz life's not easy
it faces lots of challenges
that's why life's interesting

Operation RC

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operation RC
the objective is to create a car team
of coz a simple car team
full of car enthusiasts n lovers

behinda this car team
y do the founder choose RC?
juz bcoz to chase a gal wif initial of RC

RC's target is to b a quality car team
juz that simple

thanx for supporting

End of the Year... Last man standing...

last month of year 2007
well
nth special for me this year
yet i come out wif a new idea
of operation stargazer

few days ago
i ran away from home
juz bcoz i knocked my dad's toy car in the heavy rain juz bcoz of my careless mistake
yet the 3rd day after that accident i came back home
home sweet home
guess i gonna spend much either on repair o changing a new bumper for it
that was operation road runner which juz ended the day b4

operation stargazer
the star i've been looking for
this time i saw a shooting star
yet i need to see clearly in order to chase
that begin a war of stars
i'll hav to pick the brightest in order to chase the shooting star

at this moment
bcoz of the star
that makes me feel so stress from study
tho exams starts on monday

these days always stay in the state library studying in the freezing room
looking outside the window
on the pond u can see flock of 4 duckies floating on the large pond

n stil
i din really hav the mood to study
coz my audio system upgrading plan might hav to postpone
o either cancelled if i wanan chase the shooting star
the special star

if operation stargazer succeed
it would mean a lot to my life

guess i gonna push my exams
in order to save my 5k n half year time
to me
time worth more than juz money