錯覺

工作忙得以不成人型, 也不知是否可以順利完成手上的工作, 希望不會讓同事們對我失望...

這單身的生活, 是自由, 但孤獨... 我喜歡有人陪, 一起分享快樂, 看電影, 看流星在那烏雲中滑過...

美麗的夢想看示還未蒙夢圓, 或許只因為夢呈經碎裂, 產生了自己害怕的陰影...
往往我試著不讓夢碎, 最終還是傷心的碎了, 我很心痛...
我不明白也不能接受, 對我來說這根本不是事實而是惡夢...
著讓我產生了不安的挫折感, 但問題是, 我到底犯了哪些該死的錯

只因為緣絕了嗎?
讓你離開, 是給你選擇的權力, 諾硬要把你留下, 最後的失敗最終還會是我...
諾妳選個比我好的人, 我心服口服...
但妳選錯了, 這是我不把你留下的錯誤, 還是你的選擇就是錯?
這讓我很心痛... 但我什麼也做不了, 因為這是你的選擇... 這是妳選的路...
我也不能阻止妳, 也使得這一年以來, 我孤獨的走向我自己的路...
使得我的心靈有點空虛...

但我不再椎弱的調淚

我不敢說我做的每一件事, 是對的, 但我的意志明白我再做什麼...
或許有人會說, 我很花心, 但我能說的是, 我很鍾情...
我想往的是, 永遠的愛情...
但是永遠還站在我這一邊吧...

我急的不單是找女友, 而是找個終生伴侶...
因為愛可以使我活到永遠, 這是我的信唸...

根之源點

碧藍的天空
我喜歡這無限的視野
不再喜歡從竄內, 也從沒喜歡, 在這被限制的世界, 看這外面的世界...

望著這天空, 很舒服, 很美好
不幸的是, 所謂的人見, 子所作所為, 破壞她, 母親地球...
我的心靈, 復生在這人體當中, 也未她感到悲傷
人間最終還是毀在自己的手上...

在這所謂文明的世界, 無知的人間遭到無知的荼毒...
離道的思想，短視的人間，使這世界較為本的黑暗．．．

在這不足的世界，我還是追求完美，只為完美主義生活



或許有些人，或會好奇我為何開始寫中文？
因為我只是想知到我的語言能力到哪...

說實在的... 或許我是感到孤獨, 想在的伴侶陪我...
但我很挑剔, 只因為, 我不想浪費時間選錯人...
使得, 到現在, 天使還未出現...
我也從未放棄
只要還能看見藍天的一天, 天使終會出現...

n i'm lost at the same spot i used to b...

searching for the path
under the sea of stars

it's totally dark here
can;t even see my hands wif my eyes
the moon has been hidden by the hands of god
the only thing that brights up n lit the sight to the way
only from the stars

in the darkness
shadows r all around
what else can i rely on
i don think there much

i decide my ways from my feeling
yet i lost everything from my wrong sense
what i know is
even if i lost everything
i stil hav to choose the right path n continue my life til the last breathe
knew it aint easy from the spot i'd lost
but this is where the fun came from

bad memories that the bloody letter reminds me of
n that's one of the source make my world darker
i used to beliv myself more than anything to de entire world
but now i hardly beliv even my mind as i hardly control where my mind should lead me to

i'm a perfectionist
if choosing sth i don like
i rather giv up the power choosing

there's sth i can't see after yr to the future
but i know there;s sth that affects the future
not bcoz of fate o luck
but the chance of our power to actions that may change the nx moment after

2 years after

nightmare
nightmares

that keep me awake no to fallen in nightmares instead of dreams

everything changed
in a short while of 2 years
but my heart leads me weak no changing much

i wonder how long can my life last
o even how many days i still hav

somehow it;s not bout leaving the world
but what we left for the world

well i finished MGS4 wif naked normal mode
yet i thousands juz to know the story to metal gear
what i realized is
struggle for life while we still can
avoid making any mistake
after all it's a very nice story
i hope there will b more story for metal gear

classes r starting adi
well my happy n enjoyable hours had gone
bz wif work n study
yet i feel tired somehow
in the end
what i feel is
i dono why i doing all the things for

these days
i don feel there;s anyone i should go for
o even a single feeling i can;t feel

maybe it due to the scar i left 2 years ago
o even i;ve lost my way since the past

i need sleep
my eyes
i dono how long i stil hav to stand
o even how long i still can stand
wat is my limit
i've never been that far b4

what life will b
i dono
i juz know the melting ice may flood the world n makes the world hotter
it came in a sudden from news
i was shocked n afraid
the ice r terrible if they start moving in other form
it may even b a crisis for human being

for future
i see no hope
doesn;t mean there's no hope
but i'm stil waiting n searching

nightmares that hav brought me here since 2 years ago
i;m sure there'll b more soon
yet for this world i cannot accept much
the world must accept me then
to me
i beliv in myself more anyone in this world even more than juz god

SNC TT 1st for me :P

glad to b in the SNC TT
seen other neo drivers
of how they mod their neo
meeting different ppl around as well

again i'm the one taking picture
i did take some real nice pics
very satisfied wif the pic also

looking forward to meet more neo drivers around


finally the 1st phase of peak period is over
as some of u may know i work till 8 o 9 for overtime
juz to complete the accounts i hav to for my job


n waiting for my new tv come n make my eyes comfortable wif the great full HD quality image while playing games
ah~~~~~~~~~~~~

ZTH 1st TT

well i juz joined ZTH forum on jan this year
being active since may i guess

then we had a successful TT
quite a nice experience i can say
TT for 3 days -.-
fri nite went mojo (i guai zai hardly go those place)
sat went bananasplit which near banquet
sun going for super sunday again

here r some nice pics i can share here
n the last pic is my dream ride :P

n thanx to LanEvo for helping me to bring back PS3 game which r limited edition metal gear solid 4, Grand theft auto 4
thanx to him very very much n appreciate from heart (coz i haven;t fully pay him as i forgot the money -.-)
n this luck leads me to get a sony LCD now
maybe 40"
yea, i juz bought a ps3
postpone my nu project to dec

Sudden death

these days
quite a peak period for me to work for audit firm
tho many staffs had left, some r waiting for the last day leaving
for me, i stil got a lot to study

bout the fuel hike
there's nth can control it
world is getting less n less oil which is true
but our income not enuf to cover the hike for our expenses as well
pity our malaysians
do hope the "friendly" governments can come out wif better strategy better for malaysians
maybe juz lower the taxes for imported cars n income tax

for me
the earning from fuel
the money goes to the government in the end
that don seems to help malaysian at all
coz de government loves to follow the TREND of the MARKET
poor PM, if only he comes in the right time -.-

these days
i do wanna giv up after a few mods for ma nu ride
postpone to the yr end o either after the year

what my current plan is
to get a ps3
being poisoned by metal gear solid 4
n GTA4 as well
many ppl would wonder
y i wouldn;t poisoned by GT5?
coz gt5 isn't complete if not mistaken :P

i did went to bro's friend's home see how they hav their ps3 for entertainment
a projector that gives a big size of HD quality for the visual
surround audio system
cool air con -.-
what an ideal place to enjoy games which the things shown from the projector look juz damn real
(do hope my dad would do such thing soon)

things i wanan do
so many things to do but so little time
yet i don really hav the mood for study n exam in the year end

yesterday i did went to donate blood
n was surprised to found out "world blood donor's day" (forgot what;s the actual name)
been a year plus i last donated my blood
as these days our species of blood is kinda low "stocks" for the hospital
after i donated my blood

i was tired n feel kinda tired
n i closed my eyes

fallen into sudden death
i feel i saw many things pass by in the sudden, loud noises n i woke n found myself was laying on the bed
i was scare they gonna bring me to hospital o what
luckily they juz let me rest n claims that i was too tired being lack of sleep n hungry
i guess
well
if mom knows bout i donate blood sure she;'s b noisier n more

when i was laying
i was thinking
whether death is after my shadow again
what if i never wake up?
i stil hav tons of things to do
to find my love wif my feeling

yet i did had a nightmare which i'm afraid to say
it may b sweet dream if that happen 3 yrs ago
when i was in the heaven;s dreams
a dream i shouldn;t hav, n makes more like a nightmare to me

well
feel kinda sad for my long distance relatives from china
who passed away on 9 this month i guess
guess this is a way to released him from pain from serious decease
hope him rest in peace then

for me
i wil juz go on my life to search for the right one to appear
even if i never wake up from the sudden death
at least i did things i shouldn;t left :P