Thursday, April 7, 2011

of what she used to say

A try on my new blogging tool on my iPhone which can consider as all my property on hand -.-

She used to tell me to drink honey to cure my sorethroat

She used to tell me looking at green stuffs like tree which is good for eyes

She used to tell me she wanted the stars, the moon, the sun, everything she wanted to love the world

She used to tell me how she wished both of us r staying near each others so we could meet each others frequently

Words never disappear, feeling to her is tho forever gone, now I'm here, doing things as she said, no longer everything the same, time changes everything...

Now hav to continue my lunch while did this post in 3 mins waiting time -.-

Friday, March 4, 2011

she's gone...

i remember the day she was brought back home
the day she bullied the others just to reflect on how tiny the space she suffered
the moment i saw her surprised me with her aura that i believe it do really keep bad things away
i just know she;s one of most beautiful gold fish i ever felt from my own soul

i remember the day when the aquarium was full of chemical
i was thinking to bring her to other's place just to keep her alive

i remember the day my bro brought her to my sis in law's house
which end up she killed most of the fishes in the aquarium she stayed
survived in a water tank for one week

i just believe she brought lucks to me
guarding my family like a guard although in an aquarium

i did sometimes change the aquarium's water just to bring her fresher water
i worried when she;s sick

whenever i;m happy or down
i did really share the feeling with her

my heart was pain when she swim upside down or when she;'s sick
with the blood i could see in her vein from fins just hurts so much

it may be ridiculous but there was such kinda aura i felt from this fish which is uncommon

i had a bad feeling of losing her which i never want it to be true when i was not at home

and now i'm home
she's gone
she saw i left the house door
but i never had any chance to let her know i'm back when she's no more here

i still remember the day she brought all lucks from what i felt
i just can;t stand my tears from dropping for her

she's one of the gold fish who used to be in my home;s aquarium
she's one i treated like a family member
and now she's gone
i'm sorry
i'll never forget that any kind of fish that left the most memory to me even she's gone

she may have left for other reasons
i just hope she rest in peace
but she'll forever stay in my heart guarding my soul
and she'll always live in my memory, for the luck she brought i believe in

Sunday, January 23, 2011

back to the old stage...

the stage
somewhere i used to hav the happiest memory
it's now nth special but a normal sidewalk of a shopping mall

this is somewhere i passed thru everyday for this moment
and it's true i'm back to the old stage
in a difference of timing

life here is kinda bored i have to admit
for stupid reason to be independent here

i spend most of my time, surfing, watching movie on pps, playing with my phone
luckily i brought this antique notebook here for this boring moment


things i did on the first week here
i do meet a few friends from different classes
of coz i do meet up with some friends from kuching, and some old friends here
tried ice skate in sunway, been always wanted try this until i have the chance doing so nowadays
spent few times playing pool aka snooker here
went to genting in the midnight, enjoying expensive mcd there, viewing night view in the fog
it's been more than 10yrs even since i last been to genting
drove a car myself to 1 utama and witnessed a friend become malaysia champion of GT5 racing game

another problem i encounter is food n drink
how i wish i can juz cook instead of eating outside juz to save cost n for a healthier life
for drinks, i'm drinking mineral water tho nowadays

the only freedom that constrains my current situation, that is transport
how i wish i can have a car to drive here
the road here is just so smooth, but not those so called small roads
tho i;ve been searching for nice deal of cars around instead of bringing my small wife over

the old stage
used to be the place i wanted to come the most
it's now appear more than never even wake up from dreams
but the situation on the stage, is never like a fairy tale happy ever after
it's just another journey, under the fate's orders
for her happiness i know, i don regret for what really happened on this stage before


soon i'm going back home
truly a lovely place i would breathe happily

Saturday, January 15, 2011

frustration cross the mind

dropping the coins in the wishing well for wishes to come true
the beautiful dreams, i never dare to open my eyes witness how true will it b

i'm nervous for what i'm doing
i never stop ever since the day fate brought me to this route

it may b surprises o nightmares

life's always full of challenge
trouble visits like a friend no matter what
which makes life an interesting world

today i happen to know some new friends
a lovely couple, bringing a baby around
a dream that i would die for
how admire can this b?

value of life
who would really appreciate?

revenge may b a way to survive
it may never b a way to live

Monday, January 10, 2011

fate that leads to an end...

i'll never know when will my last post here will be
as far as i know, i wont leave any regrets to this world

after life
to exchange the length of life, scarifies with the love from my family
a family that focus of money, instead of the future from the long term
that materialist is beyond than juz life

if i had died in juz another day, i may not know all these things
i juz happen to know, life's never been better ever since that day
human beings, congratulation to you all hav juz revealed of how a person u really r

step back home
nth but new bed, old bolster i used to hug for years, gone

i visited an old friend
i dropped my tears
for the tragedy happened to her

i thanked her
for telling me on how to appreciate life
tho i cannot promise when will i visit her again
i promised her, only to visit her on better tomorrows...

i never dare to know what will happen tomorrow
o even what will happen in the future
i will face it, i wont escape

live well, is always a greatest revenge
revenge for a better tomorrow

fate kept me away from death
chance leading me another place

life's always like a movie
good guys do not stay long
life's tough being a good man
at least i never regret to b myself for good faith

i've lost my ways
truly, i dono where to go
what to do
o even when death's after my shadow again

there is always a destroyer around
trouble visits like a friend
the reason that makes life interesting

an end is a rise of another begining
i'll live to a better tomorrow
til the days u deserved only to survive from worse future

even if i stop breathe one day
i'm clearly known as myself
i'm on a good faith to this world