天暗了

為了十月六號那一天, 我走遍了幾條熱鬧的街...
只為了尋找一鋒禮物, 你喜歡的生日禮物...

這首歌在一輛音響改過的車聽到, 也就在這天, 她跟我說, 她找到了對象, 而對方是遠距離的...
我祝福她, 雖然我的付出, 並沒贏取她的心, 但我不希望她會受到傷害, 重演那悲劇...


做了瘋狂的事, 買了整系列的音響配件...
也讓我開始擔心有數月無錢使用...
東西可賣回來但不知有沒有錢裝上去...

工作讓我有的厭倦, 覺得早晚會被折磨死...
工資不出頭這道理, 為了這麼一點錢, 要我犧牲許多東西...
往往我需要反省我的人生價值觀...
雖然說是來訓練, 但我們有的是生產力...
而不是來做慈善的!!!!!!


再那地上的一顆心, 是足以讓我的車進化, 成為路上的直路怪獸...
但不知可是有機會才能做到, 但只要有希望, 我不會管他人, 要的是那快感, 那滿足感...

夢里淚

對這世界的不滿, 覺得身邊許多人都不懂的思考...
也因為這樣, 使得這世界很麻亂...

往往還是把愛獻給車更為實際...

我在夢里哭了, 示乎是在兩年前發生的事...
對不捨的記憶滴血掉淚...

天氣與我的心很相識, 雲蓋滿天的天色就像我低落的心情...


再收拾房間的時刻, 看到房間滿滿的模型...
好像把我的寶貝讓出個價'讓給會照顧的人...
(起碼我會有助購的資金夠改車~)
但我乘經問過一個前輩, 他建議我把我的寶貝留著...
因為這些寶貝也給了我不少回憶...
除非我找個好價錢出讓吧, 或許我會考慮...


我誤會了我稱經瘋狂付出的女孩...
她並沒恨我, 只是我們失去了連絡...
但在過程中我領悟了很多事...


經濟不是很好, 或許年尾的投資計畫需要延後...

我等待跟我一起看流星的天使示乎還未出現...
說實在的, 並未有任和情人和我慶祝生日過...
但我還是很期待...

story that brought the tears back

today i went sing k wif my collegues
yea i did sing as well but i rather call myself shouting there

suddenly they selected a song
n yea this song is very nice
n what;s i;ve been looking for

the story reminds me of what i shouldn;t
in short moment but the sweetest moment
yet lost everything as if a dream

i;ve been through the moment
i was so concentrate at the mv n every single words
that almost made my tears drop

the movie came out when i was in primary sch
yet i remember my parent watched it in other country o in europe if not mistaken

the main characters, jack n rose
rose is the survivor in the shipwreck
yet jack left her

this is a beautiful story but wif a very sad ending
from the lyric, the mv, i feel the pain of losing someone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PtS45bh_INY

i dono how to bring the clip to my blog but juz a link
click it if u don mind

i hope everyone can really find their true love
but not to blind yr love
truely from heart
i rather myself being lonely forever even if i can't find my true love anymore
til the last breathe

sky;s down, hell's up

hell if i know where my precious stamp collection books r
only found 2 which r not that valuable
damn i juz can;t remember where i hav kept them

what makes me frutrated from the begining starts from cleaning my room
i really hope i hav a big box like a fridge for me to throw everything in

part of my life being spoiled
much worse than b4

of what i;ve studied
doesn;t seems to b usefu, worth for me to perform for what i know n experienced
i'm down
juz bcoz my own family don beliv in me at all
i tried help them, o even i tried to pay back for what they credit to me
in the end
the dream juz stuck
the baby seems hard to born to this world
o worse it never happen but an illusion

i tried so hard, which may not b the smartest way
i dono y iz things getting worse n worse
it[s not the life i wan
somehow i feel like pushing restart button for a new life
but god said it cant ever b true even in his world

i tried to kept things perfect
yet the devils n cousin demons kept on making this world dirty
that spoiled every single moment of dream i wanted to b

worthless life
for me
i hav no value
i lost too much
i rather giv up study
o rather giv up this miserable life
it don seems worth for me to do anything anymore

there's no hope in the end of the tunnel
yet i used to it
o even smiled n laughed by the past days
til i can't hold my tears anymore
i'm weak

heart's bleeding wif the tears fall
the tears which din fall for more than a year

felt so hopeless to this world
how long can this really last
even in non-human logic mind
r/ship has nothing important
hobbies has nothing
world meanstto doom

what r we trying to do
o even what r we living for

i lost
my dreams, my ambitions
dream fall but thou shall rise
yet it never sparks at all

this totalled black out

yet
god tries to tell me the same old story
chips n stones may make u fall down
but a mountain o hill wont as u can see them clearer than tiny chips

memory may b ended in the nx moments
but i still appreciate
for what i can stil feel around
yet i wont wan others to suffer in the same way i m now

beautiful lies
what a meaningless world
that makes my eyes keeps on cheating me
heart;s dying

i hope i can source a remedy b4 the world ends