some entertainment (forgot to post -.-)

some pics to share here of some events that is rarely seen in the public n some entertertainments

updates for year end of 2008, ma ride

these are some of my recent mods, DIY, further mod will b post soon, enjoy ~

interested wif anything juz let me know then

hav a 9s day!!!

被迫的覺悟

這複雜的世界, 好男人這個名詞對我來說, 已都如化石般的不存在了...
這是要為那些崩潰的男人所說的話...
別怪這些男人的無能, 只能怪自己的愚昧, 把他們的心推向了死亡的邊緣..
也難怪, 男人的數目比女人越來越少...

這現實欲醜陋的世界,
我選擇了破壞, 而不是容入這醜陋的世界...
因為我已沒有了選擇的權力...

我為愛, 被這現實糟蹋了...
愛並沒錯, 而是我選擇的錯誤...

這入詛咒般的命運, 不管我做什麼
也不能從這禁令解脫...

或許, 我真的把感情看得太重..
也許, 我應該把這心思中心分布到其他領域..

是時候醒了...

liars lie around the sad world

everyone do lies
anyone must

juz feel like expressing my frustrations here
if u feel i'm calling u a liar, admit then b4 i take off yr mask for yr ugly face that may die the world wif yr lies

somehow juz feel like there;s no future o even tomorrow
the world's been worsen n worsen wif the ugly species from human being

world is so dark
yet i stil can;t see a single star
the must hav all sunk into the sea
since they don appear in the sky

never make a promise u can;t make
never keep a secret u can;t hide
never make a lie if u;re a bad liar
never live on this world if u wan to die
never pretend to b clever if u're stupid
never try anything if u dono anything
stop spoiling the resources to the beautiful human in this world

being tiring these days
maybe i should go back to the mother nature to recharge my mind
somehow the world is spoiling my memory i hav on this world
everytime i try to sleep
the only thing came into my mind
i wasted another day meaninglessly

my novel
i can;t continue anymore
maybe i should juz buirn them
i shouldn;t keep that thing alive under my hands

christmas, great, everyone is able to do anything they like even if there;s great financial crisis

which stage had i gone
probably juz another from blank to blank story
ended meaninglessly

i wasted my nites
i wasted my weekends
i wasted my time
i wasted my life

i did nth to this world
juz feel sad without reason why

fate being juz like a movie
no matter what i do
i juz feel like
i'm juz watching wif what i'm doing

that same dreams
for no reason it repeat frequently meaninglesly

i'll juz need some sleep then
good nite to this world
mother earth
i love u for the world i chose to born on

i'm tired
yet i can;t let go n giv up yet
til de end of the world

又一年的盡頭

年復一年, 又到了盡頭
今年的目標也未完成認何一個
但達成了出乎預料的驚喜...

這年頭到底, 要找個喜歡女人還真難
或許, 真的像他人所說, 我的要求太高了
但我仍相信這句話, 人不愛就沒有要求
選擇可是會影響一輩子, 而我能做的是
在我的人生, 盡情保持完美, 不留下任何遺憾...

我很愛那片藍天
我愛那布滿著星星的黑夜
讓流星滑過那烏黑的星海
但長久以來, 我對之也沒有印象
記意最終也只留在時鐘未敲打的那一刻
雖然曾有天使停留, 但不知不覺如夢舨醒來的消失了...

往往這世界不如自己所想像的要求完美
而市我要配合這世界以追求完美...

我也希望這惡夢的消失...

也許我真的很失敗
改變不了任何事
心死了只能留下這軀體在這人間為我的悲傷哭泣

人總要話的有意義
最起碼, 我不會放棄
我會在事業上表達我的生存能力

我要超越自己, 以對死去的心靈做個交代...

無境的方向

我要感謝, 身邊的家人, 朋友, 同事們為我慶祝生日
我很珍惜各位的祝福, 禮物 和心意...

但, 我還是感覺到這世界的哭泣...
我所能做的未能改變任何東西...
而只能做的是, 如看電影般的看這世界的舞台如何表演...

預計, 情人節會離開現有的工作, 專心于我的課程上...
也可專注再我的個人事業上...

往往還是覺得很空虛, 很沒有方向...
但這一回還是聽天由命吧...

我的愛車, 最近有了新得東東,
等有空我會拍些照片上傳...
而下一改裝方向會裝住在合金輪圈与動力方面...

還有個秘密計畫正在執行當中...
儘情期待吧... Project III

SNC gathering in NOV

here r some pics to share which attending satria neo club;s gathering yesterday
damn i love that customized headlight so much :P
we had dinner at horn bill yesterday

cousin's wedding in KK

recently i went to KK wif my family to attend my cousin's wedding
quite fun but too bad we din hav much time enjoy there
din hav a nice seafood dinner as well due to limitation of time
here r some pictures to share wif
flights been delayed n we almost missed a flight due to a long story
wish my cousin n her husband to hav a bright n happy future

天暗了

為了十月六號那一天, 我走遍了幾條熱鬧的街...
只為了尋找一鋒禮物, 你喜歡的生日禮物...

這首歌在一輛音響改過的車聽到, 也就在這天, 她跟我說, 她找到了對象, 而對方是遠距離的...
我祝福她, 雖然我的付出, 並沒贏取她的心, 但我不希望她會受到傷害, 重演那悲劇...


做了瘋狂的事, 買了整系列的音響配件...
也讓我開始擔心有數月無錢使用...
東西可賣回來但不知有沒有錢裝上去...

工作讓我有的厭倦, 覺得早晚會被折磨死...
工資不出頭這道理, 為了這麼一點錢, 要我犧牲許多東西...
往往我需要反省我的人生價值觀...
雖然說是來訓練, 但我們有的是生產力...
而不是來做慈善的!!!!!!


再那地上的一顆心, 是足以讓我的車進化, 成為路上的直路怪獸...
但不知可是有機會才能做到, 但只要有希望, 我不會管他人, 要的是那快感, 那滿足感...

夢里淚

對這世界的不滿, 覺得身邊許多人都不懂的思考...
也因為這樣, 使得這世界很麻亂...

往往還是把愛獻給車更為實際...

我在夢里哭了, 示乎是在兩年前發生的事...
對不捨的記憶滴血掉淚...

天氣與我的心很相識, 雲蓋滿天的天色就像我低落的心情...


再收拾房間的時刻, 看到房間滿滿的模型...
好像把我的寶貝讓出個價'讓給會照顧的人...
(起碼我會有助購的資金夠改車~)
但我乘經問過一個前輩, 他建議我把我的寶貝留著...
因為這些寶貝也給了我不少回憶...
除非我找個好價錢出讓吧, 或許我會考慮...


我誤會了我稱經瘋狂付出的女孩...
她並沒恨我, 只是我們失去了連絡...
但在過程中我領悟了很多事...


經濟不是很好, 或許年尾的投資計畫需要延後...

我等待跟我一起看流星的天使示乎還未出現...
說實在的, 並未有任和情人和我慶祝生日過...
但我還是很期待...

story that brought the tears back

today i went sing k wif my collegues
yea i did sing as well but i rather call myself shouting there

suddenly they selected a song
n yea this song is very nice
n what;s i;ve been looking for

the story reminds me of what i shouldn;t
in short moment but the sweetest moment
yet lost everything as if a dream

i;ve been through the moment
i was so concentrate at the mv n every single words
that almost made my tears drop

the movie came out when i was in primary sch
yet i remember my parent watched it in other country o in europe if not mistaken

the main characters, jack n rose
rose is the survivor in the shipwreck
yet jack left her

this is a beautiful story but wif a very sad ending
from the lyric, the mv, i feel the pain of losing someone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PtS45bh_INY

i dono how to bring the clip to my blog but juz a link
click it if u don mind

i hope everyone can really find their true love
but not to blind yr love
truely from heart
i rather myself being lonely forever even if i can't find my true love anymore
til the last breathe

sky;s down, hell's up

hell if i know where my precious stamp collection books r
only found 2 which r not that valuable
damn i juz can;t remember where i hav kept them

what makes me frutrated from the begining starts from cleaning my room
i really hope i hav a big box like a fridge for me to throw everything in

part of my life being spoiled
much worse than b4

of what i;ve studied
doesn;t seems to b usefu, worth for me to perform for what i know n experienced
i'm down
juz bcoz my own family don beliv in me at all
i tried help them, o even i tried to pay back for what they credit to me
in the end
the dream juz stuck
the baby seems hard to born to this world
o worse it never happen but an illusion

i tried so hard, which may not b the smartest way
i dono y iz things getting worse n worse
it[s not the life i wan
somehow i feel like pushing restart button for a new life
but god said it cant ever b true even in his world

i tried to kept things perfect
yet the devils n cousin demons kept on making this world dirty
that spoiled every single moment of dream i wanted to b

worthless life
for me
i hav no value
i lost too much
i rather giv up study
o rather giv up this miserable life
it don seems worth for me to do anything anymore

there's no hope in the end of the tunnel
yet i used to it
o even smiled n laughed by the past days
til i can't hold my tears anymore
i'm weak

heart's bleeding wif the tears fall
the tears which din fall for more than a year

felt so hopeless to this world
how long can this really last
even in non-human logic mind
r/ship has nothing important
hobbies has nothing
world meanstto doom

what r we trying to do
o even what r we living for

i lost
my dreams, my ambitions
dream fall but thou shall rise
yet it never sparks at all

this totalled black out

yet
god tries to tell me the same old story
chips n stones may make u fall down
but a mountain o hill wont as u can see them clearer than tiny chips

memory may b ended in the nx moments
but i still appreciate
for what i can stil feel around
yet i wont wan others to suffer in the same way i m now

beautiful lies
what a meaningless world
that makes my eyes keeps on cheating me
heart;s dying

i hope i can source a remedy b4 the world ends

my bet to my life

i never joke wif life
but i hav my bet for my life

sky's blue
blood's red
n the dark blood that stained on her angel wings
under this blue sky
the ugly world

n i made my world messy than b4
of my career, which being lazy to work o even think
as my mind has been rejecting everthing that comes to me
wasting so much time for colleague but in the end disappointed of how they treated me(few)
n study
another bet for the pounds to the so called professional lines of study
n my will has never come out of the word, study

sad life isn;t it
at least better than ppl who happened to hav bad news in news
poisoned milk from china, what a shamed for them
yet i had forecasted this may happen one day
coz china not really care for hygiene except for beijing ever since they qualified for olympic 2008

anwar's "revenge"
doesn't seems to b hot these days
maybe a new change of the so called G may b a good idea to benefits us all'
at least the better words is, he serve for all races

leaving my ps3 downstair
few days din touch her but psp
having real fun whn playing STAR WARS: UNLEASHED
that is so cool til i played till the batt flatted
yet i know ps3 ver is too much better compare to psp ver
i wont wanan giv a try
else my pockets gonne bleeds more

pockets bleeding
mainly due to the happy news around me these days
angie's baby full moon, spend quite a number of money buy clothes for her bb
yet i never hav such expensive clothes when i was full moon of age on this mother land
n soon one of my member of RC gonna married
hav to prepare ang po for them of coz -.-
well
keep keep bleeding my pockets

i lost the ability to "survive"
on carreer n study
til now i stil dono what to do
lack of confidence doing these days
yea... i'm lost
i;ve lost
under the sea stars

juz dealed wif someone who sell me his rims
16" taiwan rims
someone who prove their will to sell
using a celica which is rich ppl's toy to carry 4 rims juz for my request
in a reasonable price
i accept the deal
not bcoz of the rimz
but the will he did to sell
n things that is what i wan
thanks to him very much
hope it wont occur much problem when i wanan do "sth" wif the rims

yet these days sth came into my mind
not only the autogauge meters
i hav other plan
to benefit me n ppl around
hope this will work
if bro support me then would b easier

i know the destination i wanna b
it juz
i lost my path for her mother land

confused of what's in my mind
yet i lost too much confident

n i'm sick of ya all

傻傻的天氣

"Love's beautiful~~~ so beautiful~~~"
蔡健雅的beautiful love, 相信許多人已聽過一段時間了, 但給我來說, 我很喜歡這首歌, 那種感覺...

傻傻欲可愛的天氣, 看起來有點懶惰, 但這幾天未哭泣, 希望今晚看到如母親般的月亮...

到底我是為什麼而做一切, 最終目的我還是不知道, 或許我根本不喜歡浪費時間...

這孤獨的單身日子, 或許只能把愛獻給我的戰車, 看今天天氣不錯, 剛買了一瓶蠟皇想打蠟, 但二哥駕了出去還未回來... -.-

工作也帶了回家, 因為在公司捉蛇太利害, 自由這樣才不會讓他人說閒話...

我在想
諾可以得到我所要的一切...
我想這個世界會因這樣而顯的沒有樂趣...
這邊是命運...

而機會...
仿佛九如身邊遇到的事情這麼去處理..
也就是選擇的權力...

命運與機會的遊戲
或許因為這樣而有點意思

tough feeling

n damn this world
for making me being so down n sad

i juz can;t stop myself from expressing myself using the old style way i used to me
damn this world of freaks that giving me the hard feeling that pressures my heart being so pain
damn!

somehow i juz feel kinda
very lost

i can;t cool myself down but only to keep on keying everything inside here
i juz dono why i can't do things i really wan, i can get everything i tried hard, but y not in relationship
n damn did all these things really caused by me!?
this is not what i wan
i juz feel so pain

it's not the case of i made lots of joke
but i gav lots of hope
n i was being like a fool n fooled like a kid wans a sweet but the sweet can never get into the kid's mouth

i juz duno why i can;t stop thinking this way
feeling as if u brought yr tickets for flight but the flight fly earlier b4 u reached to check in

there's no light in the end of the tunnel

i'm so sorry i hav to say so

but i hav to trust my feeling
coz my feeling always tell the right way i should

since from the begining
of every nightmares that fall n made me ambushed


yet
i stil like the way loving perfectionism
being perfect for everything i can

i gav the wrong bet
wrong game from the begining
i tot this would b the last angel i would go for
yet
i'm lucky enuf i never push my very last hope to this damn game

u may say i'm being like a fox complain the grapes being sour since it don hav the chance to eat
but sorry
u;re wrong
even if i;m a fox, i rather choose other in case of those grapes

i dono why do i make myself so hard for everything

n damn this feeling

i never feel good

i;m impatient
coz i never wanan get hurted
this only shorten my life in the end

i must say
my life isn;t short
but i scare my life is not long enuf for my dreams

i start to lose most of hope to this world
there;s no angel
angels r not in this human-being world
nor the devils

only the ugliest human being that is destroying their home
betraying their minds n souls

i appologise for being human
from heart
bcoz i stil hav the heart that keeps me alive
either to change this ugly world
o to watch this world til the very doom end...

yet i;ve tried my very best
n i;m sorry i can make any different in the very end

to my soul, my love to this world...

失味

我也不懂我在想什麼...
但我只能說, 我知道我在做什麼...

離考試還有三個月, 但我還為真正去打開書學習...
但我不會有放棄的念頭, 不然這世界...

對我來說, 就少了點樂趣...


我的心還未活, 或許只是我的意識真在堅持在人間的身軀...

是乎好像找到目標的天使, 但或許還得花點時間與心思...

這天陰沉沉的, 看示低調, 或許也因為這樣我的心情也有點低調

冷靜的思考與情緒, 往往對很多人來說...
在感情上, 是起不了作用...
這也是我的弱點之一...
除非你更本不把感情看重...

也因為這樣, 我有點迷失了我的方向...
在這星海下, 唯有星星是地圖...

我欲等待那流星的出現, 帶領我會到那快樂的原點...


如果要我放棄一切, 下定決心的我是做不到...
即使惡魔再度回來尋找我的影子...
只要心還唯有死的決議, 這是不可能被帶走的...


往往就如用勁了力氣, 也拉不逕天與地的距離般...
認為自己做了一切能做的事, 最終也沒得到自己想要的結果...
這也很諷刺, 最終也忘了最初是為了什麼而做...

天很暗, 心就像被壓般的難受...
世界是這麼黑暗的話, 我的心靈又能堅持多久...

在倒下的那一刻, 腦海中出現了許多畫面...
使未來還是過去, 感覺痛苦, 而且很久, 醒來發現只不過是一瞬間罷了...
如死亡邊緣般...
諾不醒來, 記憶可能如電影中斷般的結束...

我很認真, 對於我的一切, 我的生命...
看示幼稚的我, 只不過是想逃離這現實的黑暗...
難道這世界沒希望了嗎?

反正一切已經不重要了...

BMW training experiences

as in topic
i went for bmw training :P

hehe
kinda great experience for me tho i failed the first 3 training in the first part -.-
which is the training of using the electronic system in the ride to evade object quickly (forgot what/s the system's name tho, i think call DTS what ever -.-)

this silver shark is the one i was driving

that was held near the stadium's wide car park

there were 3 of 3 series n 1 5 series for training purpose
but sadly 1 of the 325 which was the most among the 3s on the day hit the tree due to loss control -.-
power overwhelming eh?

the time when i arrived
one of BMW's director was there also
n i was glad to meet some one who is so "high end"
too bad forgot to take a pic wif such a great person
as there's one of the trainee wearing slipper, the trainers din allow him for the training
yet this great man feel a bit disappointed that he couldn;t make it for the training and asked him if his shoes size suit for exchange in order for training

this is some cool training i can say that i hardly see mercedes benz hav such kinda campaign around in malaysia

i'll try if i can upload some clips here n also the clips i was driving :P
since it's 3gp format from my phone
guess that'll take a bit time -.-

sorry for some of the poor quality pics from my phone eh -.-

thanx to brandon, the man from auto bavaria

never ending tomorrow...

peak period had gone
yes i'm free as b4
juz i'll juz hav to spend some more time on my study
yet i haven;t pay for my ACCA annual fee -.-

well
during the peak period
i don even hav the time to wash ma ride
guess i'll hav to wash it till it shines like a crystal on road
(i do did some stuff til my nx plan is to change rims which is my long time dream all day long)

these days kinda sienz
when working, not as busy as b4
n that makes me kinda worse being lazy than b4
o maybe juz some construction accounts scare me a lot from my career
as its aint easy job for most ppl -.-

i still love typing england here
no worry for every single i hav to type n find from chinese

there;s some ppl keeps on asking the same ques o telling the same thing that makes me a fool -.-
well
i really hope i'm the so called "family members" else i'll b sadder for what they've been asking since rumors
so sad til sweat

gonna get my hair cut/style
the last time i went ah boon there was around when the fuel hike
yet i did really planned to get bald as my mom always complained for my long hair
after i heard from ah boon of the hair that grow again wont b so straight like b4 n may being curly
n that's it, i gav up -.-

n of my "long-lasting" problem which irritates me alot
well
i only can say: "sweat~~~~~~~~~~~~"
maybe i should go read more psychology materials
as these days ppl gets stronger in their mind
o should i say, i gets weaker? -.-
all for the angels

the beautiful days
the beautiful nights
n i hope to hav beautiful dreams

of dreams
i dono if i should call this a sweet dreams o a nightmare
everything's been so real
i hug her
she kissed me
the strange thing is
it gav me a feel after i woke up
"sometimes a devil can sound like an angel"
n that happened months ago n suddenly floated in my mind

錯覺

工作忙得以不成人型, 也不知是否可以順利完成手上的工作, 希望不會讓同事們對我失望...

這單身的生活, 是自由, 但孤獨... 我喜歡有人陪, 一起分享快樂, 看電影, 看流星在那烏雲中滑過...

美麗的夢想看示還未蒙夢圓, 或許只因為夢呈經碎裂, 產生了自己害怕的陰影...
往往我試著不讓夢碎, 最終還是傷心的碎了, 我很心痛...
我不明白也不能接受, 對我來說這根本不是事實而是惡夢...
著讓我產生了不安的挫折感, 但問題是, 我到底犯了哪些該死的錯

只因為緣絕了嗎?
讓你離開, 是給你選擇的權力, 諾硬要把你留下, 最後的失敗最終還會是我...
諾妳選個比我好的人, 我心服口服...
但妳選錯了, 這是我不把你留下的錯誤, 還是你的選擇就是錯?
這讓我很心痛... 但我什麼也做不了, 因為這是你的選擇... 這是妳選的路...
我也不能阻止妳, 也使得這一年以來, 我孤獨的走向我自己的路...
使得我的心靈有點空虛...

但我不再椎弱的調淚

我不敢說我做的每一件事, 是對的, 但我的意志明白我再做什麼...
或許有人會說, 我很花心, 但我能說的是, 我很鍾情...
我想往的是, 永遠的愛情...
但是永遠還站在我這一邊吧...

我急的不單是找女友, 而是找個終生伴侶...
因為愛可以使我活到永遠, 這是我的信唸...

根之源點

碧藍的天空
我喜歡這無限的視野
不再喜歡從竄內, 也從沒喜歡, 在這被限制的世界, 看這外面的世界...

望著這天空, 很舒服, 很美好
不幸的是, 所謂的人見, 子所作所為, 破壞她, 母親地球...
我的心靈, 復生在這人體當中, 也未她感到悲傷
人間最終還是毀在自己的手上...

在這所謂文明的世界, 無知的人間遭到無知的荼毒...
離道的思想，短視的人間，使這世界較為本的黑暗．．．

在這不足的世界，我還是追求完美，只為完美主義生活



或許有些人，或會好奇我為何開始寫中文？
因為我只是想知到我的語言能力到哪...

說實在的... 或許我是感到孤獨, 想在的伴侶陪我...
但我很挑剔, 只因為, 我不想浪費時間選錯人...
使得, 到現在, 天使還未出現...
我也從未放棄
只要還能看見藍天的一天, 天使終會出現...

n i'm lost at the same spot i used to b...

searching for the path
under the sea of stars

it's totally dark here
can;t even see my hands wif my eyes
the moon has been hidden by the hands of god
the only thing that brights up n lit the sight to the way
only from the stars

in the darkness
shadows r all around
what else can i rely on
i don think there much

i decide my ways from my feeling
yet i lost everything from my wrong sense
what i know is
even if i lost everything
i stil hav to choose the right path n continue my life til the last breathe
knew it aint easy from the spot i'd lost
but this is where the fun came from

bad memories that the bloody letter reminds me of
n that's one of the source make my world darker
i used to beliv myself more than anything to de entire world
but now i hardly beliv even my mind as i hardly control where my mind should lead me to

i'm a perfectionist
if choosing sth i don like
i rather giv up the power choosing

there's sth i can't see after yr to the future
but i know there;s sth that affects the future
not bcoz of fate o luck
but the chance of our power to actions that may change the nx moment after

2 years after

nightmare
nightmares

that keep me awake no to fallen in nightmares instead of dreams

everything changed
in a short while of 2 years
but my heart leads me weak no changing much

i wonder how long can my life last
o even how many days i still hav

somehow it;s not bout leaving the world
but what we left for the world

well i finished MGS4 wif naked normal mode
yet i thousands juz to know the story to metal gear
what i realized is
struggle for life while we still can
avoid making any mistake
after all it's a very nice story
i hope there will b more story for metal gear

classes r starting adi
well my happy n enjoyable hours had gone
bz wif work n study
yet i feel tired somehow
in the end
what i feel is
i dono why i doing all the things for

these days
i don feel there;s anyone i should go for
o even a single feeling i can;t feel

maybe it due to the scar i left 2 years ago
o even i;ve lost my way since the past

i need sleep
my eyes
i dono how long i stil hav to stand
o even how long i still can stand
wat is my limit
i've never been that far b4

what life will b
i dono
i juz know the melting ice may flood the world n makes the world hotter
it came in a sudden from news
i was shocked n afraid
the ice r terrible if they start moving in other form
it may even b a crisis for human being

for future
i see no hope
doesn;t mean there's no hope
but i'm stil waiting n searching

nightmares that hav brought me here since 2 years ago
i;m sure there'll b more soon
yet for this world i cannot accept much
the world must accept me then
to me
i beliv in myself more anyone in this world even more than juz god

SNC TT 1st for me :P

glad to b in the SNC TT
seen other neo drivers
of how they mod their neo
meeting different ppl around as well

again i'm the one taking picture
i did take some real nice pics
very satisfied wif the pic also

looking forward to meet more neo drivers around


finally the 1st phase of peak period is over
as some of u may know i work till 8 o 9 for overtime
juz to complete the accounts i hav to for my job


n waiting for my new tv come n make my eyes comfortable wif the great full HD quality image while playing games
ah~~~~~~~~~~~~